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PinkEye

Hindsightist
Yes, when I had the back injury, I was prescribed with morphine to calm the extreme pain, but then I had to see several specialists to recover, and they all said exactly the same thing in relation to morphine.

The doctors told me is that morphine is one of the strongest analgesics that exist. And if I consumed it for a long time, I was going to reach the limit of the daily dose, and from then on there was practically no other drug that could be prescribed to calm the pain.... (in my case, this was the main reason to only consume it only for a short period of time....because I knew and they knew that my recovery was going to take a while .. )

They replaced the morphine with a drug that made me feel a little dizzy (every time I took it, I felt like I had drunk 2 bottles of wine).. but that drug was apt for prolonged pain treatments.

I used that drug for about 30/45 days ... and then I got angry with myself, I ended up giving up all drugs, and I dedicated myself to resume my physical training. After 2 years of resuming my physical training, I eventually feel some kind of pain in the back, but it is tolerable.
Is your pain still bad?
 

Preacher

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Is your pain still bad?
Since I returned to training, the days in which I feel pain were reducing more and more... Today after two years I usually do not feel pain. But occasionally a day may occur where I can feel some pain that is quite strong.... But the truth is that I'm not paying attention to the pain anymore, I think I got used to it. This made that the pain in those days, although it is strong, ends up being tolerable for me.

In my case it was an emotional rather than a physical response what ended up improving my condition. When I had that injury in a TKD fight, it affected me emotionally. I was frustrated. I thought that everything I had done, it was over, and that I was going to end my days drugged by medications to soothe the pain. According to doctors, there was no other option. And sooner or later I was going to need surgery, which was going to make my condition worse.

I got very angry at myself for seeing myself in that condition. And what I did, was leave everything behind. Drugs, doctors, everything. I stopped paying attention to the pain, or covering it up with anger... I resumed my physical training, first carefully, and today, at a better level than when I had left ...

Now I am the same (or better) than I was before the injury, I am in better physical condition, only with an eventual strong pain that as I said, when it appears, I simply ignore it..or maybe I'm used to it, which makes it tolerable.
 
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I did that the first time I got clean, just swore off anything and got healthy. The pain was manageable because it's part of your body and you learn to work around it. Then I relapsed after 3 years and let a doctor convince me yet again to take methadone to get off opiates. You'd think I would have learned, doctor's don't give a fuck. So fast forward 5 maybe 6 years and finally, finally getting off methadone. Had I just dealt with opiate withdrawals it would have been 7 days. But I can only blame myself for being a complete idiot. Ya live and you learn, sometimes learn a lot
You are not an idiot. You fell into the hands of bad doctors. It's not your fault.

On the other hand, my uncle is the director of a laboratory, you would be amazed to know how many doctors have economic arrangements with different laboratories .... Many times doctors receive an economic return every certain amount of prescriptions of a medicine.
 

McM

Krautnigger
Hmmm..

I had to consume morphine for a while because of an injury that i suffer in my back, and the doctors gave me other information regarding morphine...

They told me that the problem with morphine is that the body ends up getting used to the dose. When that happens, it loses the effect, and there is no other option but to increase the dose to maintain the effect (and so on). So it is not a drug that can be used for a long time, on the contrary, except in terminally ill patients, it is a drug that must be replaced in a short period of time.
Developing tolerance is normal and you have to raise the dosage for a certain degree. Until the next time, all life long if necessary. Some are more affected, others can be on the same dosage for longer.
The morphine that's prescribed for substitution here is from a slow release kind, this helps not developing a tolerance so fast too. Many junks are 'happy' it's available now, they're much more 'awake' than the local Meth-zombies wearing their can of beer all day long. But as usual the pharma company has a good profit again, selling this old crap for ~200 €/100 pills.
I'm using morphine pills only as a backup and for the cases I can't have real dope in my pockets/traveling over a border or if I want to sleep longer.
 

McM

Krautnigger
Lucky fucker! Where's this majestic land?
Germany. They have even diamorphine programs in many cities now. It's meant for the junks who don't work and hanging around anyway, they can show up 4 times a day in a shooting gallery and have a shot of 10% clean H for free. No 'take-home' and you have to inject (not necessary i.v.) No cocktails too!
A friendly nurse watches you and helps if you nod up too hard and brings you to the door after max. 20 min. :lol:
 

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Developing tolerance is normal and you have to raise the dosage for a certain degree. Until the next time, all life long if necessary.
Yes, but from what the doctors told me, there is a limit. The dose can not be increased indefinitely, and the problem arises when that limit is reached, because there is nothing stronger that can be prescribed to calm the pain. That is why the doctors said to me that morphine should not be used for prolonged pain treatments.

The morphine that's prescribed for substitution here is from a slow release kind, this helps not developing a tolerance so fast too.
Nice!
 

McM

Krautnigger
Yes, but from what the doctors told me, there is a limit. The dose can not be increased indefinitely, and the problem arises when that limit is reached, because there is nothing stronger that can be prescribed to calm the pain. That is why the doctors said to me that morphine should not be used for prolonged pain treatments.



Nice!
After morphine, there are other meds for pain, like the fentanyl sort for example.
But substitution is a different thing, not a pain treatment, therefore a doc should have so many sorts of meds as possible like for other diseases. Light stuff like subutex and H for the 'hopeless' cases.
But drug treatment is always a political thing and so it did last long until we are at this point now where they give hardcore junkies H for free. Maybe just because the prisons are overpopulated with them (jk).
 

PinkEye

Hindsightist
Germany. They have even diamorphine programs in many cities now. It's meant for the junks who don't work and hanging around anyway, they can show up 4 times a day in a shooting gallery and have a shot of 10% clean H for free. No 'take-home' and you have to inject (not necessary i.v.) No cocktails too!
A friendly nurse watches you and helps if you nod up too hard and brings you to the door after max. 20 min. :lol:
That's fucking crazy, I would have loved that shit years ago!
 

PinkEye

Hindsightist
Yes, but from what the doctors told me, there is a limit. The dose can not be increased indefinitely, and the problem arises when that limit is reached, because there is nothing stronger that can be prescribed to calm the pain. That is why the doctors said to me that morphine should not be used for prolonged pain treatments.



Nice!
This is interesting stuff here... My country is so lame when it comes to medical stuff. I guess I'm glad I didn't have these options though cause I may have never gotta sober.
 

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After morphine, there are other meds for pain, like the fentanyl sort for example.
But substitution is a different thing, not a pain treatment, therefore a doc should have so many sorts of meds as possible like for other diseases. Light stuff like subutex and H for the 'hopeless' cases.
But drug treatment is always a political thing and so it did last long until we are at this point now where they give hardcore junkies H for free. Maybe just because the prisons are overpopulated with them (jk).
Yes, my cousin (who is a pharmacist) told me about an analgesic that was stronger than morphine but she told me that it is only used in hospitals here. She never told me the name, but it must be that one (fentanyl), because from what I could read it is injectable, has a lot of adverse effects, it is used as a drug complementary to anesthesia and here it is sold only under "official" prescription.
(I do not know what this last thing means, but it must be something related to the fact that a person can not buy it.. or at least, it should not be so easy to prescribe to a person...)

In my case when I was prescribed morphine, I had to show 3 documents in the pharmacy (prescriptions) that were associated with my ID, and I had to show my ID as well. Something that does not happen with other medications where you only show the medical prescription (and they do not ask you for identification). Apparently the sale of drugs is taken very seriously here.
 

PinkEye

Hindsightist
Id previously been on methadone 75ml to 35 then relapsed. This time I started at 120 and two years later I'm on 25ml. I find it easier to come off than Heroin. Willpower is key.

I always said that I wont be taking kit at 50...
Previously, I came off of Suboxone after 2 years of that. That was super easy. But all the whiney cunts at my clinic say once you get down to 30, it's hell. I'm on 46ml now and going down 5 every 2 weeks. It doesn't feel great but your đź’Ż right, will power, will power. You only smoked it then? No needles?
 
I always promised myself never to jag it. Dont get me wrong, ive watched my mates get the vein and wanted that feeling but no, never. I od smoking it though, had plenty of gins before i started smoking it that day... :cool:
 

McM

Krautnigger
Yes, my cousin (who is a pharmacist) told me about an analgesic that was stronger than morphine but she told me that it is only used in hospitals here. She never told me the name, but it must be that one (fentanyl), because from what I could read it is injectable, has a lot of adverse effects, it is used as a drug complementary to anesthesia and here it is sold only under "official" prescription.
(I do not know what this last thing means, but it must be something related to the fact that a person can not buy it.. or at least, it should not be so easy to prescribe to a person...)

In my case when I was prescribed morphine, I had to show 3 documents in the pharmacy (prescriptions) that were associated with my ID, and I had to show my ID as well. Something that does not happen with other medications where you only show the medical prescription (and they do not ask you for identification). Apparently the sale of drugs is taken very seriously here.
Here there are special 'drug prescriptions' for every med which is regulated by certain drug laws and the most meds are paid by your health insurance after a doc decided you need that. With this paper you can get fentanyl patches for example in the pharmacy but I guess i.v. solutions in higher % are used in hospitals only.
 

PinkEye

Hindsightist
Here there are special 'drug prescriptions' for every med which is regulated by certain drug laws and the most meds are paid by your health insurance after a doc decided you need that. With this paper you can get fentanyl patches for example in the pharmacy but I guess i.v. solutions in higher % are used in hospitals only.
I've tried a 48hr fentanyl patch and ripped it off my arm after 8 hours, holy fuck. I'd been doing dope for years, but that shit was way too intense. I thought I'd stop breathing.
 

PinkEye

Hindsightist
I always promised myself never to jag it. Dont get me wrong, ive watched my mates get the vein and wanted that feeling but no, never. I od smoking it though, had plenty of gins before i started smoking it that day... :cool:
Obviously, I started smoking and I hated needles, but the father of my children thought I was "wasting" money. He insisted on shooting me up. I didn't know how to do it for the first couple years, til he went to jail. Needless to say, I figured it out. After you start shooting, the thought of smoking it makes you want to puke. I'm gagging right now at the thought of it
 

PinkEye

Hindsightist
Didnt like suboxs...
Well you can't really get high while you're on them, at least I never tried, but I was on intensive female probation program, and that fucking cunt officer was scary good at her job, I got sick of getting thrown in the clinker
 

PinkEye

Hindsightist
Be strong Miss...
I don't regret a day, although there were many many hard ones. I had a relapse a week ago just for a night. It's fine, I don't have that addicive personality, at least not like my children's father. It was mostly getting free from that relationship. That was my drug. We met when I was 15, and I finally ended it after finding out he was fucking a 17 yr old Mexican chick 3.5 years ago. One of many indiscretions, but she was closer to our daughters age (we were teen parents) and also a Mexican. Anyways, honestly love was my drug I guess, and it's all good now
 
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