same i’ve always wanted to feel the power you would get from having someone’s life in your hands, but of course i would never actually do iti find myself thinking about what it would feel like to murder someone often, its an impulsive urge i would never give into but my curiosity cant help itself. on the other hand i also fantasize of what it would feel like to be murdered often too.
sorry for the grammar errors, ive been drinkingi have always had a liking of gore for a numerous amount reasons. One being the thrill and excitement, and two being the pain i could inflict upon others. Though I have never acted on such thoughts, that doesnt stop me from fantasizing about them. I quite love watching people be cut, the human body amazes me. I love watching people slowly be cut open while they beg the person doing it to stop, i just love it and i cant go into detail without causing time to run out. The first thing id love to do is psychological torture, its really just a beautiful thing. For example, im gonna look at them. no facial expression whatsoever and im going to smile and then proceed to tell them what im going to do to them. that will cause them to panick, then ill leave them for 1 hour causing them to think about the people they love and that they dont wanna die. i will then tie them up on a table, their back on the table. i will then start making incisions with my scalpel while they beg me to stop, quite erotic when i think about it. i will not cut deep, maybe just 2 inches or so. i will then start burning them, taking a hot steel rod and dragging it across their body making them scream which will make their body tilt up, which will make that hurt even more. whether theyre a female or male, i have no interest in raping ANYONE, i can fuck my wife whenever i want to or i can grab a slut off the street and fuck her. anyways, back to my messed up mind. while i burn them they will beg me to stop and ill say “after this you can go” making them feel relived but they most likely wont remember earlier when i told them everything i was gonna to do them, this was only the first step. i will then start cutting them more causing confusion because i said they could go, they most likely will remind me and then ill just gag them. ill then start ripping off their fingernails and then cutting the skin underneath it causing even more pain. then ill cut one finger off, the pinky. i will wrap it up because i dont want them to pass out, i want them to feel this pain. i will treat their wounds and then leave for a day. they might piss themselves or even shit themselves.once i get back if they made a mess id make them clean up their vial substances and then sit them up in a chair. i will start hammering their knees, causing them to break and inflicting an immeasurable amount of pain. ill then set them on their stomach (their hands are tied behind their back) and ill start pouring water on them. they might feel relieved just feeling a second of cleanliness, though this is not the case i was shooting for. ill then cut their back 3 inchs causing it to go quite deep which will cause alot of blood. ill then repeatedly stitch it and cut it again and again. then ill lay them back down on a table and start putting nails in their chest, only going an inch in. once their is a fair amount of nails inserted into their chest ill hammer them down (keep in mind the nails are only on their breasts, not near their heart) they will scream out in pain which will make me hard, id then probably leave them for 5 minutes because id jack off or something. id come back stab their eyes and then cut them open FINALLY. id then play with their dead body and dispose of it. ta da