This is a great question that I too have been thinking about. Ive traced it to a few key events in my life which also gave birth to my morbid curiosity.
The first instance happened when I was 5. I saw my pet wiener dog, fritz, run over by a Jeep. Not knowing about death, I run over to him, shaking and telling him to wake up. Second was watching the chechclear video. It scared the living shit out of me and left me quite traumatized. Then the protracted illness of my step-father. He was a good man and did not deserve the agonizing death he endured.
All of those things combined brought me to this messageboard.
The first instance happened when I was 5. I saw my pet wiener dog, fritz, run over by a Jeep. Not knowing about death, I run over to him, shaking and telling him to wake up. Second was watching the chechclear video. It scared the living shit out of me and left me quite traumatized. Then the protracted illness of my step-father. He was a good man and did not deserve the agonizing death he endured.
All of those things combined brought me to this messageboard.