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Terrible secrets you've been keeping

I’ve had two abortions. The first one I deeply regret but the second was absolutely necessary. It’s always stuck with me and I’m glad the law has changed in my state where you have to wait 24 hours after registering. Because it wasn’t that way when I had my first abortion and I would have had time to think and realize the father wasn’t who I thought it was. It was my old middle school boyfriend who was the father who is a great guy. I never told him, and never will. It’s hard enough on me. Plus he is married now. But I always wonder because I have a son now and he is the most amazing blessing in my life. Breaks my heart I took someone out of this world who should be here. Abortion is something that always stays with you. Unless of coarse your a heartless bitch who doesn’t care much. Like a chick that was at that clinic right after who was saying “I’m glad that’s over” and I’m over here holding it all in but sick to my stomachs and sad as hell. Anyways glad I got that off my chest. Thanks.
Im so sorry you had to go threw that, even after all that, you still fought on and raised your 2nd child :). Your not a horrible person or anything like that, u need to stop beating yourself up and start to heal....Stay strong you will see it threw :)
My terrible secret is that I don't have any terrible secrets.
I put so much pressure on myself to be perfect.
Never disappoint anyone. Always make everyone else happy.
Trying to do the right thing ALL of the time.
I love people TOO much.....
Don't care what others think but feel.
Not really caring about how I feel myself.
You might want to talk to someone like a proper sitdown
 
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I have a relative. Claimed he pulled a drive by on a motorcycle in like 1983/1984. Shot a guy in the head. I believe him. And sometimes I think I should go "snitch" on him cuz he's a real POS. Not my story sorry but someone I know
 
I cant say what ive done or seen but what i can say is im here because it helps me cope with the consequences of my actions. I experienced things first hand and im constantly in a mental battle every day at every moment with thoughts and flashbacks, sometimes i blank some times i feel like my heart is going to explode like a heart attack, sometimes i feel like i cant manage another day and want to die. Being here allows me to refocus my attention sub-consciously and consciously by filling my head with memories other than ones with me in them. No matter how gruesome or gory at least its not me on the receiving end and that itself keeps me sane enough in what sanity i have left.
 
I just found out that a high school guy friend of mine that was in NJROTC with me committed suicide bc he was in love with me. I never even knew. He was so quiet and geeky like I was, never asked me out or anything. His mom said that he had written a letter but they only just found it bc it had slid behind the dresser.
Damn that’s just sad.
 
I hate myself. No not your typical emo type hate and self loathing. For some reason over the past year I've gained weight without changing my diet. Came out of nowhere. Now I can't lose it for anything. I'm now starving myself to lose weight, especially since at 38 I have to have a total knee replacement surgery because of falling, and my ex husband with his steel toe boots. I can't look in a mirror, and I've all but given up. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest. 💖
Putting on weight just means there's more of you to love. Don't hate yourself there are plenty of people will do that for you. starving yourself will only make your health worse when your older. Take that from me. you are a very pretty lady.
 
Sworn to carry a dark secret to your grave? Here's a place to vent and take some of the weight off.

There's a famous unsolved murder in my town where a young lady was raped and strangled. The case used to appear on Crime Stoppers and once it came on while my father and I were watching TV. He admitted to me that he and his new wife were there that night parked next to a car in which some commotion with a screaming woman was going on in the back and creepy looking guy with missing teeth was in the front seat grinning at them. The next morning it was all over the tv and radio. He was getting set to go to the copshop when his wife (my mother-to-be) begged him not to, fearing retribution from the murderers.
I used to think that once my father died I would make an anonymous call and give the info I have, but everyone involved is probably long dead.
If you been to prison, survived, and got out... Your deepest secrets are either publicly advertising on the news of your arrest or it's well known in prison. As for me, mine are on public record... Surprised I survived this far in life.
 
I once planned to detonate a pipe bomb in my school's boiler room when I was 16 or 17 years old. I had no reason to do so other than not enjoying the school I went to or the people I saw each day, and notably this was after the deaths of two good friends. Didn't enjoy the way things were at home either so this idea of mine festered for a few months before finally the thought dissipated over time.

It's important to think twice before you act.
 
Sworn to carry a dark secret to your grave? Here's a place to vent and take some of the weight off.

There's a famous unsolved murder in my town where a young lady was raped and strangled. The case used to appear on Crime Stoppers and once it came on while my father and I were watching TV. He admitted to me that he and his new wife were there that night parked next to a car in which some commotion with a screaming woman was going on in the back and creepy looking guy with missing teeth was in the front seat grinning at them. The next morning it was all over the tv and radio. He was getting set to go to the copshop when his wife (my mother-to-be) begged him not to, fearing retribution from the murderers.
I used to think that once my father died I would make an anonymous call and give the info I have, but everyone involved is probably long dead.
It wouldn't B a Secret if I spilled it!
No Speaky Speaky Da Secret!!!
SP
 
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