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Serious Anybody experienced death closely lately?

redninja

redninja

miserable fucker
I realise I haven't been around all that long in the grand scheme of things, so please forgive the somewhat weighty subject matter... but has anyone experienced death very closely lately and, if so, can anyone put into words how it's made them feel? I ask as last Friday a friend of mine was laid to rest (bowel cancer, super aggressive, father of three; dead at 36 and a more humble, family-oriented bloke you are never likely to meet), and after that on the same afternoon my dad was rushed into hospital where he died just before midnight. And I can honestly say that all I feel really - for the moment at least - is cold and numb. Please understand that I don't ask this in a snowflakey 'please pay attention to me, I'm so sad, I deserve all the attention' kind of way - you can all tell me to get fucked if you're so inclined. I'm just genuinely interested as to whether anyone else has experienced similar and whether they think that watching gore has desensitised them to death in the 'real world'.
 
Yes watching gore has desensitized me a little bit! I just found out a great friend of over 30 years died last December.
I’m sorry for your lost by the way!
Yea I feel this shit may have made it a bit easier
 
i did i survived two big muddpigs in morocco it was night and i running to them and they tried to f bit me but i run away and clumb a tre i was so frightened i thought i m gona die like i felt the brezze down my skelton like i never felt it befor
 
Thanks for your sharing and honesty. I can fully identify with you. I feel nothing. But it is not gore that has made me desensitized; feeling nothing has brought me to gore. Someone killed three children the other day, I don't feel sad, but I have a murderous sentiment towards the perpetrator. I lost family members over the years in different ways; I feel nothing but a desire for blood, twisted muscles, and broken bones. I don't feel close to anyone; I wonder if the feeling of closeness is a self-delusion and if some people share their delusions. I want to be your delusion, and you want me to be your delusion, and we call that love. There is no love; there is only you. You are the only real thing; the rest are just doing their own thing. That is why there is no need to cry or be sad. People come and go. My question is, what's the difference between a mouse and a fellow man? None but your perception and judgment. To me, everyone is already dead; just some are quieter than others.
 
I realise I haven't been around all that long in the grand scheme of things, so please forgive the somewhat weighty subject matter... but has anyone experienced death very closely lately and, if so, can anyone put into words how it's made them feel? I ask as last Friday a friend of mine was laid to rest (bowel cancer, super aggressive, father of three; dead at 36 and a more humble, family-oriented bloke you are never likely to meet), and after that on the same afternoon my dad was rushed into hospital where he died just before midnight. And I can honestly say that all I feel really - for the moment at least - is cold and numb. Please understand that I don't ask this in a snowflakey 'please pay attention to me, I'm so sad, I deserve all the attention' kind of way - you can all tell me to get fucked if you're so inclined. I'm just genuinely interested as to whether anyone else has experienced similar and whether they think that watching gore has desensitised them to death in the 'real world'.
Death is part of life. The only things anyone has to do is live and die. I don't fear death,just the few moments leading up to it. Anyone who passes beyond this mortal coil knows the answer to the ultimate question.
I realise I haven't been around all that long in the grand scheme of things, so please forgive the somewhat weighty subject matter... but has anyone experienced death very closely lately and, if so, can anyone put into words how it's made them feel? I ask as last Friday a friend of mine was laid to rest (bowel cancer, super aggressive, father of three; dead at 36 and a more humble, family-oriented bloke you are never likely to meet), and after that on the same afternoon my dad was rushed into hospital where he died just before midnight. And I can honestly say that all I feel really - for the moment at least - is cold and numb. Please understand that I don't ask this in a snowflakey 'please pay attention to me, I'm so sad, I deserve all the attention' kind of way - you can all tell me to get fucked if you're so inclined. I'm just genuinely interested as to whether anyone else has experienced similar and whether they think that watching gore has desensitised them to death in the 'real world'.
You ask a good question. It promotes disscussion at a truly deep level. Anyone that tells you to"get fucked"is a neanderthal.
 
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redninja said:
I realise I haven't been around all that long in the grand scheme of things, so please forgive the somewhat weighty subject matter... but has anyone experienced death very closely lately and, if so, can anyone put into words how it's made them feel? I ask as last Friday a friend of mine was laid to rest (bowel cancer, super aggressive, father of three; dead at 36 and a more humble, family-oriented bloke you are never likely to meet), and after that on the same afternoon my dad was rushed into hospital where he died just before midnight. And I can honestly say that all I feel really - for the moment at least - is cold and numb. Please understand that I don't ask this in a snowflakey 'please pay attention to me, I'm so sad, I deserve all the attention' kind of way - you can all tell me to get fucked if you're so inclined. I'm just genuinely interested as to whether anyone else has experienced similar and whether they think that watching gore has desensitised them to death in the 'real world'.
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Sorry 4 Your losses GOREFRIEND 🙏
Death can B unpredictable at times!
SP
 
In the last 20 years, i've lost 2 brothers (aids, suicide) and 2 sisters (ovarian cancer, amyloidosis), all my aunts and uncles, my mother and father, father-in-law, and my loving dog. I'm a fairly stoic guy, so life continues.
 
yea.... a really good life time friend of mine died this year. cancer in his thyroid.
his brother (johnny) 2 weeks later goes into the hosp for a scheduled liver surgery. died on the table.
then a month later,johnnys son died of an apparent o.d.
who i feel worse for is danny and johnnys mother and father. 2 kids and a grandson in a month and a half time. there were 7 children . now they have 5.
 
I overdosed at the beginning of the year off my medication. It’s like a bad trip but it’s brought me very close to death. I’m more aware of everything that could kill me and think about how easy or hard it might be to die in such a way, which is what brought me to this site. I also feel less empathy for others pain. Really knowing you can die at any moment is a frightening realization that hits you like an addiction.
 
You will be shocked, then numb, then sad, then angry, then you will return to the land of the living and come here to see others suffer and die because it will help you feel better. Works for me and I've lost more close people that the damn Clintons.
 
Sorry about your father and close friend.
Death is never easy. It is the only promise life gives you.
Mourn as long as you need to just don't lose yourself. Hell 3 yrs and the pain is still here after losing my best friend.
 
redninja said:
I realise I haven't been around all that long in the grand scheme of things, so please forgive the somewhat weighty subject matter... but has anyone experienced death very closely lately and, if so, can anyone put into words how it's made them feel? I ask as last Friday a friend of mine was laid to rest (bowel cancer, super aggressive, father of three; dead at 36 and a more humble, family-oriented bloke you are never likely to meet), and after that on the same afternoon my dad was rushed into hospital where he died just before midnight. And I can honestly say that all I feel really - for the moment at least - is cold and numb. Please understand that I don't ask this in a snowflakey 'please pay attention to me, I'm so sad, I deserve all the attention' kind of way - you can all tell me to get fucked if you're so inclined. I'm just genuinely interested as to whether anyone else has experienced similar and whether they think that watching gore has desensitised them to death in the 'real world'.
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I lost my main supporter, my beautiful Mother in March of 2021. Her death was unexpected and devastated my family. I still cry daily and miss her dearly. But if you asked me if I would want one more day with her. I would say no. I'd have to lose her all over again. I couldn't go through that loss twice😭
 
Guipago said:
When you've reached 'old' age everyone you know starts dropping off the perch, sucks, but, "no one gets out of this game alive"
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Again, a point of view that very much echoes my own; I've been asked SO many times now what he died of, to which my answer has now just become "being 92"
 
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