Id like to commit suicide

[Denim Chicken]

A short account of my full Testimony: It was like a living horror movie. I can recall as a child laying on my bed, I remember being petrified after a girl said that I would go to hell. I remember being up by the ceiling and I could see the bottom of my bed, but I was too afraid to look at myself. Then immediately I was in a Tunnel of white bright light travelling at a phenomenal speed heading towards something, the walls of the Tunnel were illuminating light. I thought to myself 'what's at the end of this Tunnel' And instantly in my mind I heard ‘GOD’ Then I was terrified, twice I shouted 'I want to go back' Immediately I was back on my bed as if nothing had happened. Then to my stupidity at 18 years old, everything went downhill. I got involved with crime, paganism, and the occult years ago. I saw demons manifest in a room with a witness present. They were black see-through shadows with hooded heads and they swayed from side to side as if they had no rest. Identical to the film ‘Ghost with Patrick Swayze. I called on the Lord God and they disappeared. I heard the audible voice of Jesus Christ in a thundering voice in which told me to “Fear no evil’ from another separate encounter. Even after the hearing the Lord Speak, I still rebelled against Him, such was the strong Satanic hold on me. One incident one demon growled the word ‘Yes’ After I asked it a question, and a young boy looked over and heard it. Days later I saw an open vision from the Lord in which He revealed a part of Himself to me after I cried out and pleaded that He would prove Himself, and that I never wanted to ever see the group of demons again. I started to attend Church, I left my evil life behind, and started to warn people everywhere that Jesus Christ died on the cross to save everyone from eternal torment and give them eternal life. Romans 10:9 That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.... So glad I know the truth, this is just a small fraction of my whole testimony. Please accept Jesus Christ as your saviour. He died and rose from the dead, to pay the penalty for our Sin and for us to escape Hell. We will all be held accountable at the judgment, either saved or condemned... I Thank God I know the truth. The Occult is real, hell is real, Satan and his demons are real, The Kingdom of Heaven is real, Jesus Christ is Lord, and demons are subject to His name. Seek Jesus and His Kingdom. My Full testimony is on other social media sites…. I still do not like shadows, neither faint whisper’s... God knows the truth of my horrendous past experiences. My wife's best friend died years ago when she was young. I told her 'Sam, you need to come to know Jesus as your Saviour’, and told her that I have a bad feeling that something bad was going to happen ' Death'. She went on the street and told everyone that I was crazy after telling her my testimony from the occult…Within weeks she consumed alcohol and because she was epileptic, she had a seizure in a bath and died as a result. The Lord showed me this beforehand. Also, during another incident an older man got friendly with me during church, I didn’t realise that he was gay at the time, I was younger then, and one afternoon he approached me at home and continually wanted me to pray over him. I told him ‘No Huw that’s enough’. He went into the kitchen to get a drink of water, I got on my knees and said ‘God please sort him out. Instantly he came running in, threw himself on the sofa, God gave him a vision of hell. He wept uncontrollably. I have other experiences also. Even to this day years later, I still do not like hearing faint whispers and seeing shadows. The demons were identical to the film ‘Ghost with Patrick Swayze’. Prior to my conversion to Jesus and regarding my testimony, I was a criminal. A close friend committed suicide; another friend committed murder. I gave my testimony to those in the forces, some believed. If only all did, everyone will be held accountable at the judgment of Jesus Christ and will either be saved or condemned. There is no escaping that, Jesus is the way to the Kingdom. He paid the penalty for all our wrongs on the cross shamefully beaten, all for what? To save us all from eternal hell. This earth has been given over, cash will end, and in the soon coming future, the mark of the beast from the Antichrist will be forced.

Shut the fuck up

 

[mrln]

ever think about the old "stand by" method? draw a bath for yourself, then accidentally the tele falls in the tub?

 

[The endiscoming]

Shut the fuck up

At the judgment of Jesus Christ when you see Jesus you'll have a lump in your throat. Mark my words and rememeber them well.

 

[hedgerow]

A short account of my full Testimony: It was like a living horror movie. I can recall as a child laying on my bed, I remember being petrified after a girl said that I would go to hell. I remember being up by the ceiling and I could see the bottom of my bed, but I was too afraid to look at myself. Then immediately I was in a Tunnel of white bright light travelling at a phenomenal speed heading towards something, the walls of the Tunnel were illuminating light. I thought to myself 'what's at the end of this Tunnel' And instantly in my mind I heard ‘GOD’ Then I was terrified, twice I shouted 'I want to go back' Immediately I was back on my bed as if nothing had happened. Then to my stupidity at 18 years old, everything went downhill. I got involved with crime, paganism, and the occult years ago. I saw demons manifest in a room with a witness present. They were black see-through shadows with hooded heads and they swayed from side to side as if they had no rest. Identical to the film ‘Ghost with Patrick Swayze. I called on the Lord God and they disappeared. I heard the audible voice of Jesus Christ in a thundering voice in which told me to “Fear no evil’ from another separate encounter. Even after the hearing the Lord Speak, I still rebelled against Him, such was the strong Satanic hold on me. One incident one demon growled the word ‘Yes’ After I asked it a question, and a young boy looked over and heard it. Days later I saw an open vision from the Lord in which He revealed a part of Himself to me after I cried out and pleaded that He would prove Himself, and that I never wanted to ever see the group of demons again. I started to attend Church, I left my evil life behind, and started to warn people everywhere that Jesus Christ died on the cross to save everyone from eternal torment and give them eternal life. Romans 10:9 That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.... So glad I know the truth, this is just a small fraction of my whole testimony. Please accept Jesus Christ as your saviour. He died and rose from the dead, to pay the penalty for our Sin and for us to escape Hell. We will all be held accountable at the judgment, either saved or condemned... I Thank God I know the truth. The Occult is real, hell is real, Satan and his demons are real, The Kingdom of Heaven is real, Jesus Christ is Lord, and demons are subject to His name. Seek Jesus and His Kingdom. My Full testimony is on other social media sites…. I still do not like shadows, neither faint whisper’s... God knows the truth of my horrendous past experiences. My wife's best friend died years ago when she was young. I told her 'Sam, you need to come to know Jesus as your Saviour’, and told her that I have a bad feeling that something bad was going to happen ' Death'. She went on the street and told everyone that I was crazy after telling her my testimony from the occult…Within weeks she consumed alcohol and because she was epileptic, she had a seizure in a bath and died as a result. The Lord showed me this beforehand. Also, during another incident an older man got friendly with me during church, I didn’t realise that he was gay at the time, I was younger then, and one afternoon he approached me at home and continually wanted me to pray over him. I told him ‘No Huw that’s enough’. He went into the kitchen to get a drink of water, I got on my knees and said ‘God please sort him out. Instantly he came running in, threw himself on the sofa, God gave him a vision of hell. He wept uncontrollably. I have other experiences also. Even to this day years later, I still do not like hearing faint whispers and seeing shadows. The demons were identical to the film ‘Ghost with Patrick Swayze’. Prior to my conversion to Jesus and regarding my testimony, I was a criminal. A close friend committed suicide; another friend committed murder. I gave my testimony to those in the forces, some believed. If only all did, everyone will be held accountable at the judgment of Jesus Christ and will either be saved or condemned. There is no escaping that, Jesus is the way to the Kingdom. He paid the penalty for all our wrongs on the cross shamefully beaten, all for what? To save us all from eternal hell. This earth has been given over, cash will end, and in the soon coming future, the mark of the beast from the Antichrist will be forced.

^ If this is the short account, I'd hate to see the long one.
PS--If you want people to actually read your drivel, use paragraphs instead of a wall of text.

I used to be extremely suicidal and attempted on a number of different occasions, usually including certain prescription medications and self mutilation. One of my most extreme attempts was at the age of 14. At this point I had run away from my mother's house due to her drug consumption and relationship with an abusive son of a bitch. My biological father had tried to take me in, but my suicide attempts and infatuation with Satanism had caused him to give custody to my aunt.
I had seen a number of different psychiatrists and therapists who had prescribed a plethora of pills that only ever seemed to make things worse. I had been taking Prozac as well as a few other medications before I moved in with my aunt. I decided that I hated the way the drugs the doctors gave me made me feel. Seroquel was the most recent at the time, and being in middle school around a bunch of curious adolescents, I ended up giving the kids at school my doses. I would watch them ingest the pill and become extremely sedated, they would start to act like zombies.

One day, after a breakup, I decided to stop pretending to take what the doctor gave me and eat all of it at once. I wrote a few suicide notes to some close friends, telling them that I would miss them and that I regretted doing what I was doing. Mainly things I thought they would want to hear. Because they wouldn't want the truth.
I spent the next hour maniacly laughing and slicing at my legs and arms.
This was when the app music.ly was still running and I posted videos online of my bloody body as I lip synced to songs through a crazy smile. I was happy to be ending my life, I was embracing my death.
At some point in my blood bath I remembered I had more Seroquel that I could take, crushed up in a plastic bag, tucked away in a binder for school.
I got up to go retrieve the bag... and I don't remember much from that point.
My Aunt said she found my body in the morning and she had her roommate lift me into the car so she could take me to the hospital. Apparently I flat lined a few times and the doctor who tended to my lacerations counted over a hundred self inflicted wounds. I awoke from a drug induced coma in a state of confusion with extreme hallucinations. The picture of a butterfly on the wall became a chainsaw weilding skeleton, bugs were crawling under my skin and out of the orifices of my loved ones who stood over my bed side. My loved ones who intended to calm me, but only contributed to my hellish waking nightmare.
To this day I believe that I succeeded in killing myself and saw the gates of hell. It is my punishment to continue my life.

^ my word, that's interesting

ever think about the old "stand by" method? draw a bath for yourself, then accidentally the tele falls in the tub?

^ this is the method my brother chose, except he used 14/2 wire, taped the hot and the neutral to different sides of his chest, used a timer and bypassed the circuit breaker so no mistakes...he was always a perfectionist. I always wonder wtf he was thinking about sitting in the tub until the timer energized the circuit

 

[deviant2]

Piss off.

 

[Bill Murray]

A short account of my full Testimony: It was like a living horror movie. I can recall as a child laying on my bed, I remember being petrified after a girl said that I would go to hell. I remember being up by the ceiling and I could see the bottom of my bed, but I was too afraid to look at myself. Then immediately I was in a Tunnel of white bright light travelling at a phenomenal speed heading towards something, the walls of the Tunnel were illuminating light. I thought to myself 'what's at the end of this Tunnel' And instantly in my mind I heard ‘GOD’ Then I was terrified, twice I shouted 'I want to go back' Immediately I was back on my bed as if nothing had happened. Then to my stupidity at 18 years old, everything went downhill. I got involved with crime, paganism, and the occult years ago. I saw demons manifest in a room with a witness present. They were black see-through shadows with hooded heads and they swayed from side to side as if they had no rest. Identical to the film ‘Ghost with Patrick Swayze. I called on the Lord God and they disappeared. I heard the audible voice of Jesus Christ in a thundering voice in which told me to “Fear no evil’ from another separate encounter. Even after the hearing the Lord Speak, I still rebelled against Him, such was the strong Satanic hold on me. One incident one demon growled the word ‘Yes’ After I asked it a question, and a young boy looked over and heard it. Days later I saw an open vision from the Lord in which He revealed a part of Himself to me after I cried out and pleaded that He would prove Himself, and that I never wanted to ever see the group of demons again. I started to attend Church, I left my evil life behind, and started to warn people everywhere that Jesus Christ died on the cross to save everyone from eternal torment and give them eternal life. Romans 10:9 That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.... So glad I know the truth, this is just a small fraction of my whole testimony. Please accept Jesus Christ as your saviour. He died and rose from the dead, to pay the penalty for our Sin and for us to escape Hell. We will all be held accountable at the judgment, either saved or condemned... I Thank God I know the truth. The Occult is real, hell is real, Satan and his demons are real, The Kingdom of Heaven is real, Jesus Christ is Lord, and demons are subject to His name. Seek Jesus and His Kingdom. My Full testimony is on other social media sites…. I still do not like shadows, neither faint whisper’s... God knows the truth of my horrendous past experiences. My wife's best friend died years ago when she was young. I told her 'Sam, you need to come to know Jesus as your Saviour’, and told her that I have a bad feeling that something bad was going to happen ' Death'. She went on the street and told everyone that I was crazy after telling her my testimony from the occult…Within weeks she consumed alcohol and because she was epileptic, she had a seizure in a bath and died as a result. The Lord showed me this beforehand. Also, during another incident an older man got friendly with me during church, I didn’t realise that he was gay at the time, I was younger then, and one afternoon he approached me at home and continually wanted me to pray over him. I told him ‘No Huw that’s enough’. He went into the kitchen to get a drink of water, I got on my knees and said ‘God please sort him out. Instantly he came running in, threw himself on the sofa, God gave him a vision of hell. He wept uncontrollably. I have other experiences also. Even to this day years later, I still do not like hearing faint whispers and seeing shadows. The demons were identical to the film ‘Ghost with Patrick Swayze’. Prior to my conversion to Jesus and regarding my testimony, I was a criminal. A close friend committed suicide; another friend committed murder. I gave my testimony to those in the forces, some believed. If only all did, everyone will be held accountable at the judgment of Jesus Christ and will either be saved or condemned. There is no escaping that, Jesus is the way to the Kingdom. He paid the penalty for all our wrongs on the cross shamefully beaten, all for what? To save us all from eternal hell. This earth has been given over, cash will end, and in the soon coming future, the mark of the beast from the Antichrist will be forced.

I stopped reading after "my full Testimony" since what follows that contrived phrase is always some Grade A horseshittery. Fuck you and take your preachy nonsense to jesuslovesme.net

I used to be extremely suicidal

What would it take you to get back to that happy place?

At the judgment of Jesus Christ when you see Jesus you'll have a lump in your throat. Mark my words and rememeber them well.

If there is a rapture, and there won't be but I'll play along.....if there is a rapture I'll simply have a third down and short conversion, ask for forgiveness and since I've been told Jesus and his new testament dad is a loving god I'll get that forgiveness and be welcomed into heaven. Won't you look quite the knob having to rub shoulders with a reformed sinner like me.

 

[Denim Chicken]

I stopped reading after "my full Testimony" since what follows that contrived phrase is always some Grade A horseshittery. Fuck you and take your preachy nonsense to jesuslovesme.net



What would it take you to get back to that happy place?



If there is a rapture, and there won't be but I'll play along.....if there is a rapture I'll simply have a third down and short conversion, ask for forgiveness and since I've been told Jesus and his new testament dad is a loving god I'll get that forgiveness and be welcomed into heaven. Won't you look quite the knob having to rub shoulders with a reformed sinner like me.

Fourth and short, you Canadian rules freak.

 

[Bill Murray]

Fourth and short, you Canadian rules freak.

Our balls are bigger

 

[Smedley D. Butler]

Please remember to set up lights and properly focused cameras from multiple angles. Then, try to appear that you profoundly regret taking your life as the eternal darkness falls. Extra points if there is a lot of writhing in agony.

 

[MATAMUERTOS]

 

[mrln]

this is the method my brother chose, except he used 14/2 wire, taped the hot and the neutral to different sides of his chest, used a timer and bypassed the circuit breaker so no mistakes...he was always a perfectionist. I always wonder wtf he was thinking about sitting in the tub until the timer energized the circuit

damn dude,sorry to hear. how long ago and how old was he?

 

[BigTittyGothBitch]

BEFORE YOU SHOULD DECIDE TO OFF YOURSELF ......WOULD YOU BE SO KIND TO SHOW ALL US HORNY GG MEMBERS YOUR SWEATER PUPPETS ?
THANKS !

yes. I will show my tits if I ever kill myself, which I won't kill my self

I used to be extremely suicidal and attempted on a number of different occasions, usually including certain prescription medications and self mutilation. One of my most extreme attempts was at the age of 14. At this point I had run away from my mother's house due to her drug consumption and relationship with an abusive son of a bitch. My biological father had tried to take me in, but my suicide attempts and infatuation with Satanism had caused him to give custody to my aunt.
I had seen a number of different psychiatrists and therapists who had prescribed a plethora of pills that only ever seemed to make things worse. I had been taking Prozac as well as a few other medications before I moved in with my aunt. I decided that I hated the way the drugs the doctors gave me made me feel. Seroquel was the most recent at the time, and being in middle school around a bunch of curious adolescents, I ended up giving the kids at school my doses. I would watch them ingest the pill and become extremely sedated, they would start to act like zombies.

One day, after a breakup, I decided to stop pretending to take what the doctor gave me and eat all of it at once. I wrote a few suicide notes to some close friends, telling them that I would miss them and that I regretted doing what I was doing. Mainly things I thought they would want to hear. Because they wouldn't want the truth.
I spent the next hour maniacly laughing and slicing at my legs and arms.
This was when the app music.ly was still running and I posted videos online of my bloody body as I lip synced to songs through a crazy smile. I was happy to be ending my life, I was embracing my death.
At some point in my blood bath I remembered I had more Seroquel that I could take, crushed up in a plastic bag, tucked away in a binder for school.
I got up to go retrieve the bag... and I don't remember much from that point.
My Aunt said she found my body in the morning and she had her roommate lift me into the car so she could take me to the hospital. Apparently I flat lined a few times and the doctor who tended to my lacerations counted over a hundred self inflicted wounds. I awoke from a drug induced coma in a state of confusion with extreme hallucinations. The picture of a butterfly on the wall became a chainsaw weilding skeleton, bugs were crawling under my skin and out of the orifices of my loved ones who stood over my bed side. My loved ones who intended to calm me, but only contributed to my hellish waking nightmare.
To this day I believe that I succeeded in killing myself and saw the gates of hell. It is my punishment to continue my life.

I love this story, I wish I could say I am glad your alive but I dont know a lick of who you are, for all I know you could be a rapist. but this story was genuinely wild, thank you for sharing hun!

ever think about the old "stand by" method? draw a bath for yourself, then accidentally the tele falls in the tub?

my method would be the good ol fashioned swallow something too big to swallow method (joking)

At the judgment of Jesus Christ when you see Jesus you'll have a lump in your throat. Mark my words and rememeber them well.

mark my words when you die, you'll be disappointed your little cult you feel the need to shove down peoples throat is a fraud, a big fat phony so that greedy people can steal gullible peoples money. don’t get me wrong, there's a difference between faith and a cult. your in the cult side of things. you know no one gives a fuck about god. ESPECIALLY on a gore site. yet you feel the need to express that, it’s okay to believe it but the moment you speak about your imaginary friend as fact. you can go to your church and jerk your self off with the hand of god. then leave as a new (wo)man claiming that god himself said your a good boy

I stopped reading after "my full Testimony" since what follows that contrived phrase is always some Grade A horseshittery. Fuck you and take your preachy nonsense to jesuslovesme.net



What would it take you to get back to that happy place?



If there is a rapture, and there won't be but I'll play along.....if there is a rapture I'll simply have a third down and short conversion, ask for forgiveness and since I've been told Jesus and his new testament dad is a loving god I'll get that forgiveness and be welcomed into heaven. Won't you look quite the knob having to rub shoulders with a reformed sinner like me.

god loves all his children, thats why sites like this exist. because god LOVES shooting up schools, and murdering people it’s how he shows his love. with his children no one is equal, and you get the freedom of free choice in your religion, but don’t you worry your little head, you can chose to be jewish, but god doesn't like that and you'll goto hell (gasp!) and if anything bad happens! leave it to the christians to blame satan unless it was an inconvenience! oh no! my best friend was killed in a car crash because he was drunk and driving one hundred and sixty miles per hour on a Seventy five road? curse you satannnnnnn! oh wow! a politician I don’t like died! god works in mysterious ways!
christianity is a joke, a lot of the questions I ask are answered by half ass excuses, kinda like asking kids who put there hand in the cookie jar and they can’t make something up on the fly,

Q:why did god chose to kill my dad?
A:god works in mysterious ways my child

Q:why did I suffer growing up but none of my friends did
A:because god loves everyone differently

Q:why did god kill your brother
A: that was satan

Q:if Jesus died for my sins... how come I can still sin and goto hell
A: thats a question for god hun

if there was a second coming of Jesus Christ. and you weren't bat shit crazy like most if not all christians who are on the cult end of it. if there was a second coming, everyone would think he's some crazy homeless dude who does magic tricks. you know how many men ive seen say i am the second coming of Jesus Christ? too many to count on this entire forms fingers and toes.
whos to say the bibble isn't just a convoluted sci fi book someone wrote when eating the wrong mushrooms? also the fact that there's many different versions of the Bible that specifically tailor to peoples needs one bible hates gays, the other loves them and says god accepts all, one bible says white people are superior, one bible says whites are equal. one bible says the bowl goes first before you pour cerial then milk, and the other bible says the bowl goes last and the milk goes first

Please remember to set up lights and properly focused cameras from multiple angles. Then, try to appear that you profoundly regret taking your life as the eternal darkness falls. Extra points if there is a lot of writhing in agony.

to be honest if I were to kill myself, id set myself into one of those 360 degree filming rigs where they have like 500 cameras at every angle, and I would make them all shoot in slomotion, so that my suicide would be a cinematic art piece! id sell it as a NFT hahaahhaahha

 

[Joker1981]

Go out in a 'Blaze of Glory' and take out some SOROS funded district attorneys first!

 

[wiggins]

Xena wasn't even real. Just some loon playing a part.

The world is the stage upon which all us loons play a part...

 

[Grand Mal Caesar]

The world is the stage upon which all us loons play a part...

Xena wasn't playing his part metaphorically though.

 

[wiggins]

Xena wasn't playing his part metaphorically though.

Yes. Poor Xena...

They all kind of merge after a while: Xena, forgottencumstain04, and I forget the rest...

I've been banned from Facebook and Twitter for pointing out the absurdities of the LGBTQI+++++ madness but so far I've stayed within the flags here...

 

[no u]

heya! it’s good that the title got you to click this, now that your here I wanna make this clear, I am not suicidal. I will not kill myself, and I do not plan on killing myself. now to the post
sometimes I want to kill myself, just to see peoples reactions. of course I would do it under the pretense I would spawn back to life after, but I wonder what people would say. or do honestly you know? what things would change in my "life" and what things I would have lost by cutting it short, i am curious on who would be hurt, old exes? old friends? enemies I have long forgotten? would people look into my will in which I have told all of my friends about incase of anything and have several of at all times. one on my neck, one in my room. and a few hidden that only friends would ever be able to find around the state. would my friends commit suicide at the news? would my closest friends shrug it off? will the people I am closest to not be able to handle the pain, or would they use it to propel themselves forward knowing I am the kinda girl that wants to help all so many questions that can only be answered by the action I will never do.

is there anything I missed out? discuss your thoughts on this below

how the fuck should we know? god damn 14 years olds whoring for attention

 

[thebully08$]

heya! it’s good that the title got you to click this, now that your here I wanna make this clear, I am not suicidal. I will not kill myself, and I do not plan on killing myself. now to the post
sometimes I want to kill myself, just to see peoples reactions. of course I would do it under the pretense I would spawn back to life after, but I wonder what people would say. or do honestly you know? what things would change in my "life" and what things I would have lost by cutting it short, i am curious on who would be hurt, old exes? old friends? enemies I have long forgotten? would people look into my will in which I have told all of my friends about incase of anything and have several of at all times. one on my neck, one in my room. and a few hidden that only friends would ever be able to find around the state. would my friends commit suicide at the news? would my closest friends shrug it off? will the people I am closest to not be able to handle the pain, or would they use it to propel themselves forward knowing I am the kinda girl that wants to help all so many questions that can only be answered by the action I will never do.

is there anything I missed out? discuss your thoughts on this below

You are a fucking moron!
Did you get enough attention you little bitch!
Now fuck off🖕🏻

You are a fucking moron!
Did you get enough attention you little bitch!
Now fuck off🖕🏻

As someone who has been through this I loath people like you
You are gutter water trash!

You are a fucking moron!
Did you get enough attention you little bitch!
Now fuck off🖕🏻

As someone who has been through this I loath people like you
You are gutter water trash!

 

[Chemical Burgers]

tl;dr
kill yourself

 

[thebully08$]

You are a fucking moron!
Did you get enough attention you little bitch!
Now fuck off🖕🏻


As someone who has been through this I loath people like you
You are gutter water trash!


As someone who has been through this I loath people like you
You are gutter water trash!

I am sorry but this just made me so angry please get help