5 Years Sober

[D.O.A.]

5 years ago today, I was being admitted to a 6-week inpatient centre for opioid and alcohol detox and rehab. So it’s my 5 years sober check point today.

Prior to this, I was taking enough oxycodone or morphine each day to give 300 patients the higher of the two starting doses. I could down a whole bottle of Oxynorm just to feel normal for an hour or two. Being a doctor makes it too easy to get these drugs, and too easy to hide it. Waking up each day in cold turkey and sneaking the normalising dose I’d hidden was fucking awful.

On the run up to rock bottom, I practiced aiming my Golf GTI I had back then at walls on a local country road at 100mph to work out where I could kill myself and make it look like an accident. This was because my insane addict mind thought my family would cope better with my accidental death, than finding out I was an addict. I didn’t go ahead with it because I couldn’t detox myself long enough to get a clean blood set for the Coroner, and that would prevent my wife getting my life insurance. Addiction has oddly creative insanity.

So I got to the point I told my family as a last resort. Amazingly, they stuck by me and got me help. I was put into rehab by a service that cares for NHS doctors with mental health problems, and also got my later ADHD diagnosis via them too.

I joined GG a couple of month after rehab, and it’s been a big part of my recovery journey. I mean a big part as you guys have truly helped me get to being clean, and the happiest and strongest I’ve ever been. This is a place I can let myself be myself around like minded nutters.

I owe my life to my family, the team at rehab etc, hard work on my part, but also you guys. The gratitude I have for my support network is infinite, even though infinity is a doddle for me to count to.

I wholeheartedly thank every one of you for being part of my recovery journey. I really mean that. You guys are fucking awesome, and I hold a lot of love for you all.

Special thanks for the staff for keeping the site running for us.

Thanks for reading this soppy and serious post. If anyone is struggling with addiction, it is possible to beat even if it’s painfully difficult. Be honest and open up, to yourself first. Don’t be afraid to speak up here. Learn to let love in, and let go of the past.

Again, my sincere thanks to you all.


Here’s the meditation tent at rehab.

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And a dry sand portrait of my mum’s horse I did in art therapy on the hottest day of the year.

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[DeathHand]

Congrats! Even one day can be a feat. Hopefully can stick with it, one day at a time. Go easy on the 4th, if there, it’s a good one but can also have some negatives with it that can be impactful in not such a great way.

Also, mindful of the many closed meetings ‘pop psychologists’.

Slainte!

 

[scooterDlo]

5 years ago today, I was being admitted to a 6-week inpatient centre for opioid and alcohol detox and rehab. So it’s my 5 years sober check point today.

Prior to this, I was taking enough oxycodone or morphine each day to give 300 patients the higher of the two starting doses. I could down a whole bottle of Oxynorm just to feel normal for an hour or two. Being a doctor makes it too easy to get these drugs, and too easy to hide it. Waking up each day in cold turkey and sneaking the normalising dose I’d hidden was fucking awful.

On the run up to rock bottom, I practiced aiming my Golf GTI I had back then at walls on a local country road at 100mph to work out where I could kill myself and make it look like an accident. This was because my insane addict mind thought my family would cope better with my accidental death, than finding out I was an addict. I didn’t go ahead with it because I couldn’t detox myself long enough to get a clean blood set for the Coroner, and that would prevent my wife getting my life insurance. Addiction has oddly creative insanity.

So I got to the point I told my family as a last resort. Amazingly, they stuck by me and got me help. I was put into rehab by a service that cares for NHS doctors with mental health problems, and also got my later ADHD diagnosis via them too.

I joined GG a couple of month after rehab, and it’s been a big part of my recovery journey. I mean a big part as you guys have truly helped me get to being clean, and the happiest and strongest I’ve ever been. This is a place I can let myself be myself around like minded nutters.

I owe my life to my family, the team at rehab etc, hard work on my part, but also you guys. The gratitude I have for my support network is infinite, even though infinity is a doddle for me to count to.

I wholeheartedly thank every one of you for being part of my recovery journey. I really mean that. You guys are fucking awesome, and I hold a lot of love for you all.

Special thanks for the staff for keeping the site running for us.

Thanks for reading this soppy and serious post. If anyone is struggling with addiction, it is possible to beat even if it’s painfully difficult. Be honest and open up, to yourself first. Don’t be afraid to speak up here. Learn to let love in, and let go of the past.

Again, my sincere thanks to you all.


Here’s the meditation tent at rehab.

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And a dry sand portrait of my mum’s horse I did in art therapy on the hottest day of the year.

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congratulations brother. keep on keeping on, you beat one of the hardest things to beat and it makes me happy to see it.

 

[badangel7]

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[Flatus Tube]

Good on you man. 👍 And a timely post, too; last week, my family got my older brother to check into a 28 day addiction treatment center. We noticed he was alarmingly zonked at a family reunion; turns out he's been buying benzos online for years. His office was littered with empty pill bottles and blister packs. It's been hell on his wife (my sister-in-law).

Question: He's saying the worst part of rehab is having a roommate, lol. Did you have a roommate? How did you get along?

I was lucky the rehab I went to was all single rooms. I had a little sink in mine too. The toilets were shared.

We had 8-9 people in my bit of the centre and we still had Covid restrictions in place. Due to the contract with Practitioner Health, half of the residents were doctors at any one time.

Most rehabs put people with others to help them to learn to cope with their shame and tolerate other opinions. It’s kind of like a form of group therapy. Your brother will find it hard to start with, but hopefully will see the benefit in the second half of his treatment.

My room.

I am astounded by the response to this thread. Being honest, it brought a happy tear to my eyes.

Again, you guys are fucking awesome.

 

[Tuomas Woorhees]

@Flatus Tube You can say you are real world hero. Its propably one of the hardest things that man can go thru. And the sickness is forever, it can only keep down by curying oneself day by day also forever. You are my hero, and consider my friend. Yeas its truly a selebration drinking time, maybe a ice cold lemonade. Thank you for being here. 🎂

 

[Charliesangel79]

I'm so happy you were able to beat your addiction and be here with us! No doubt it's tougher than I could imagine, but you did it! Congrats on your 5 year mark, and may there be many many more! ❤️

 

[jslay427]

5 years ago today, I was being admitted to a 6-week inpatient centre for opioid and alcohol detox and rehab. So it’s my 5 years sober check point today.

Prior to this, I was taking enough oxycodone or morphine each day to give 300 patients the higher of the two starting doses. I could down a whole bottle of Oxynorm just to feel normal for an hour or two. Being a doctor makes it too easy to get these drugs, and too easy to hide it. Waking up each day in cold turkey and sneaking the normalising dose I’d hidden was fucking awful.

On the run up to rock bottom, I practiced aiming my Golf GTI I had back then at walls on a local country road at 100mph to work out where I could kill myself and make it look like an accident. This was because my insane addict mind thought my family would cope better with my accidental death, than finding out I was an addict. I didn’t go ahead with it because I couldn’t detox myself long enough to get a clean blood set for the Coroner, and that would prevent my wife getting my life insurance. Addiction has oddly creative insanity.

So I got to the point I told my family as a last resort. Amazingly, they stuck by me and got me help. I was put into rehab by a service that cares for NHS doctors with mental health problems, and also got my later ADHD diagnosis via them too.

I joined GG a couple of month after rehab, and it’s been a big part of my recovery journey. I mean a big part as you guys have truly helped me get to being clean, and the happiest and strongest I’ve ever been. This is a place I can let myself be myself around like minded nutters.

I owe my life to my family, the team at rehab etc, hard work on my part, but also you guys. The gratitude I have for my support network is infinite, even though infinity is a doddle for me to count to.

I wholeheartedly thank every one of you for being part of my recovery journey. I really mean that. You guys are fucking awesome, and I hold a lot of love for you all.

Special thanks for the staff for keeping the site running for us.

Thanks for reading this soppy and serious post. If anyone is struggling with addiction, it is possible to beat even if it’s painfully difficult. Be honest and open up, to yourself first. Don’t be afraid to speak up here. Learn to let love in, and let go of the past.

Again, my sincere thanks to you all.


Here’s the meditation tent at rehab.

View attachment 904522

And a dry sand portrait of my mum’s horse I did in art therapy on the hottest day of the year.

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5 years of anything is too long. Seriously tho, as someone who has struggled with getting off of suboxone I know what an achievement this is. Congrats

 

[thylacine666]

That’s awesome mate, congratulations!

I’ve been battling the demon drink for years now (lucky I’ve never had access to anything harder as I know for a fact I wouldn’t be here any more), hoping I’ve finally kicked it now (yes there’ve been many times I’ve thought that, and always end up deciding I want to drink again… this time feels different though… and it’s also not the first time I’ve thought that).

I hope one day I can look back after 5 years sober too, still alive for my family who’ll never know how bad I was, especially my kids who won’t have to lose their dad to something that should be so easy to just not do.

This place definitely helps me, as weird and insane as that would seem to anyone who’s not us… I look forward to my daily dose of gore every night before bed.

The demented senses of humour here make me feel right at home. 😈

 

[Richard 1986]

You did it cool !! I used to drink so much alcohol Jack Daniel's red or white wine Ricard ( French alcohol 50 ° ) and i stopped alone !! The last time was 30 march why i stopped ? Difficult body impacts everyday too expensive nobody helped me except the HATE !! All my neighboors are full of money crazy cars porsche bmw and i am moneyless so the hate is a good friend to staying alive !! I am sure one day i will drink again but for example one time per week cause alcohol is marvellous but for the moment i am clean before i drink again i must find a job cause i lost my old job 3 years ago ( 20 years medecine technician ) ...

 

[excalibur]

5 years ago today, I was being admitted to a 6-week inpatient centre for opioid and alcohol detox and rehab. So it’s my 5 years sober check point today.

Prior to this, I was taking enough oxycodone or morphine each day to give 300 patients the higher of the two starting doses. I could down a whole bottle of Oxynorm just to feel normal for an hour or two. Being a doctor makes it too easy to get these drugs, and too easy to hide it. Waking up each day in cold turkey and sneaking the normalising dose I’d hidden was fucking awful.

On the run up to rock bottom, I practiced aiming my Golf GTI I had back then at walls on a local country road at 100mph to work out where I could kill myself and make it look like an accident. This was because my insane addict mind thought my family would cope better with my accidental death, than finding out I was an addict. I didn’t go ahead with it because I couldn’t detox myself long enough to get a clean blood set for the Coroner, and that would prevent my wife getting my life insurance. Addiction has oddly creative insanity.

So I got to the point I told my family as a last resort. Amazingly, they stuck by me and got me help. I was put into rehab by a service that cares for NHS doctors with mental health problems, and also got my later ADHD diagnosis via them too.

I joined GG a couple of month after rehab, and it’s been a big part of my recovery journey. I mean a big part as you guys have truly helped me get to being clean, and the happiest and strongest I’ve ever been. This is a place I can let myself be myself around like minded nutters.

I owe my life to my family, the team at rehab etc, hard work on my part, but also you guys. The gratitude I have for my support network is infinite, even though infinity is a doddle for me to count to.

I wholeheartedly thank every one of you for being part of my recovery journey. I really mean that. You guys are fucking awesome, and I hold a lot of love for you all.

Special thanks for the staff for keeping the site running for us.

Thanks for reading this soppy and serious post. If anyone is struggling with addiction, it is possible to beat even if it’s painfully difficult. Be honest and open up, to yourself first. Don’t be afraid to speak up here. Learn to let love in, and let go of the past.

Again, my sincere thanks to you all.


Here’s the meditation tent at rehab.

View attachment 904522

And a dry sand portrait of my mum’s horse I did in art therapy on the hottest day of the year.

View attachment 904523View attachment 904524

I really really love the horse portrait, ur mum has such a pretty horse...
and congrats... i guess.... 🌞





Jkjk, 🍀
so glad u got ur shit tg dude. Being sober is honestly the best,
idek how i managed to stay alive while i was on shit myself. Suicide and being under the influence also typically goes hand and hand so i hope for u that resolved itself.

Also i find that just taking care of my mind/body/spirit feels so good, idk how i could've lived any other way.
Tell us about the meditation tent, I'm very intrigued on some experiences you had if you don't mind sharing u.u


It's also nice to not be a paranoid fuck making stupid decisions, and to be grounded in reality.
I'm no BibleTard™️, but there's a passage that goes :

1 Peter 5:8
"Be sober, be vigilant, because your adversary the devil walketh about as a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour."

Anyways,
I'm new here but completely feel the getting to be urself freely with other nutters part as well,
it's such a great thing to have, it really helps keep the sanity.
Every group of people I've dappled in until GG have been cult like retards,
y'all rlly seem to be the most sane individuals which is funny as fk that it's a gore site of all places XD
thanks mods, admins, cheers to anyone else who's celebrating sobriety...
Ofc much Love nd power to u !!!

 

[Flatus Tube]

I really really love the horse portrait, ur mum has such a pretty horse...
and congrats... i guess.... 🌞





Jkjk, 🍀
so glad u got ur shit tg dude. Being sober is honestly the best,
idek how i managed to stay alive while i was on shit myself. Suicide and being under the influence also typically goes hand and hand so i hope for u that resolved itself.

Also i find that just taking care of my mind/body/spirit feels so good, idk how i could've lived any other way.
Tell us about the meditation tent, I'm very intrigued on some experiences you had if you don't mind sharing u.u


It's also nice to not be a paranoid fuck making stupid decisions, and to be grounded in reality.
I'm no BibleTard™️, but there's a passage that goes :

1 Peter 5:8
"Be sober, be vigilant, because your adversary the devil walketh about as a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour."

Anyways,
I'm new here but completely feel the getting to be urself freely with other nutters part as well,
it's such a great thing to have, it really helps keep the sanity.
Every group of people I've dappled in until GG have been cult like retards,
y'all rlly seem to be the most sane individuals which is funny as fk that it's a gore site of all places XD
thanks mods, admins, cheers to anyone else who's celebrating sobriety...
Ofc much Love nd power to u !!!

Every morning, we were timetabled to meditate for 30 mins before therapy. Luckily, another GP was there who had already started learning about meditation, spirituality and Buddhism. He explained meditation doctor to doctor and it made sense.

It’s all about focusing your full consciousness on a single point, or nothing if you can manage, for a period of time. I didn’t know I had ADHD back then but for the first 2 weeks was on an Oxazepam detox (20mg 4 times a day at first) which probably helped me to relax 😂.

Guided mediations are excellent to practice and find techniques that work for you. I find body scans or breath focus best.

The first mediation I did was this, it’s really nice and covers several techniques such as body scan/ muscle work, mental visualisation and self compassion.




I also learned about Wim Hof’s breathing technique and find it one of the best ways to boost mood, induce calm and focus. If creates an intense runners high which lasts a long time. It needs to be done lying on your back as the drop in blood carbon dioxide during hyperventilation causes tingling and slight dizziness which is harmless. I once managed a 7.5 minute breath hold after 25 minutes of hyperventilation, my own longer version listening to DnB to time faster breathing.

The beginners guide is great and only takes 10 minutes.

 

[GoreTex1961]

Congratulations on 5 years of sobriety! The ease to which doctors can get scripts is sick. My husband had a hernia surgery and they gave him such a huge bottle of pain pills I was in shock. I had a hip replaced and they gave me 10 pills.

Neither is good...it's feast or famine. There really needs to be a middle ground in pain management. Patients having to resort to street drugs for pain relief because doctors can't/won't prescribe pain meds anymore is just as bad addiction caused by over prescribed meds.

I miss my tylenol 3's that is for sure. I have 4 squirrelled away just in case...I'm afraid to use them cause when they are gone, they are gone. Luckily I don't get the headaches I used to get cause those new migraines meds did bugger all in my case.

I sound like an addict! lol

 

[Ravishing Rick Rude]

5 years ago today, I was being admitted to a 6-week inpatient centre for opioid and alcohol detox and rehab. So it’s my 5 years sober check point today.

Prior to this, I was taking enough oxycodone or morphine each day to give 300 patients the higher of the two starting doses. I could down a whole bottle of Oxynorm just to feel normal for an hour or two. Being a doctor makes it too easy to get these drugs, and too easy to hide it. Waking up each day in cold turkey and sneaking the normalising dose I’d hidden was fucking awful.

On the run up to rock bottom, I practiced aiming my Golf GTI I had back then at walls on a local country road at 100mph to work out where I could kill myself and make it look like an accident. This was because my insane addict mind thought my family would cope better with my accidental death, than finding out I was an addict. I didn’t go ahead with it because I couldn’t detox myself long enough to get a clean blood set for the Coroner, and that would prevent my wife getting my life insurance. Addiction has oddly creative insanity.

So I got to the point I told my family as a last resort. Amazingly, they stuck by me and got me help. I was put into rehab by a service that cares for NHS doctors with mental health problems, and also got my later ADHD diagnosis via them too.

I joined GG a couple of month after rehab, and it’s been a big part of my recovery journey. I mean a big part as you guys have truly helped me get to being clean, and the happiest and strongest I’ve ever been. This is a place I can let myself be myself around like minded nutters.

I owe my life to my family, the team at rehab etc, hard work on my part, but also you guys. The gratitude I have for my support network is infinite, even though infinity is a doddle for me to count to.

I wholeheartedly thank every one of you for being part of my recovery journey. I really mean that. You guys are fucking awesome, and I hold a lot of love for you all.

Special thanks for the staff for keeping the site running for us.

Thanks for reading this soppy and serious post. If anyone is struggling with addiction, it is possible to beat even if it’s painfully difficult. Be honest and open up, to yourself first. Don’t be afraid to speak up here. Learn to let love in, and let go of the past.

Again, my sincere thanks to you all.


Here’s the meditation tent at rehab.

View attachment 904522

And a dry sand portrait of my mum’s horse I did in art therapy on the hottest day of the year.

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Awesome , proud of ya , ill celebrate with a obnoxious amount of booze and cocaine!!!

 

[GenericMale]

I was a problem binge drinker for a few years so I am aware of the darkness and despair that addiction brings. Knowing someone of your knowledge fell victim to the same kind of struggle is honestly very comforting to me, thankyou so much for sharing this with us.

I've really cut down so much my drinking so things are getting much better. I'm really fucking proud of you for going 5 years brother, that takes real willpower! Here's to family and you NEVER going back! 🥳🥳🥳

 

[Smokinrav]

Awesome job!

Jan 1 will be 4 years for me. Now, where's my vape?

 

[Cold Ethyl]

Congratulations on your sobriety

 

[Wyldeone]

5 years ago today, I was being admitted to a 6-week inpatient centre for opioid and alcohol detox and rehab. So it’s my 5 years sober check point today.

Prior to this, I was taking enough oxycodone or morphine each day to give 300 patients the higher of the two starting doses. I could down a whole bottle of Oxynorm just to feel normal for an hour or two. Being a doctor makes it too easy to get these drugs, and too easy to hide it. Waking up each day in cold turkey and sneaking the normalising dose I’d hidden was fucking awful.

On the run up to rock bottom, I practiced aiming my Golf GTI I had back then at walls on a local country road at 100mph to work out where I could kill myself and make it look like an accident. This was because my insane addict mind thought my family would cope better with my accidental death, than finding out I was an addict. I didn’t go ahead with it because I couldn’t detox myself long enough to get a clean blood set for the Coroner, and that would prevent my wife getting my life insurance. Addiction has oddly creative insanity.

So I got to the point I told my family as a last resort. Amazingly, they stuck by me and got me help. I was put into rehab by a service that cares for NHS doctors with mental health problems, and also got my later ADHD diagnosis via them too.

I joined GG a couple of month after rehab, and it’s been a big part of my recovery journey. I mean a big part as you guys have truly helped me get to being clean, and the happiest and strongest I’ve ever been. This is a place I can let myself be myself around like minded nutters.

I owe my life to my family, the team at rehab etc, hard work on my part, but also you guys. The gratitude I have for my support network is infinite, even though infinity is a doddle for me to count to.

I wholeheartedly thank every one of you for being part of my recovery journey. I really mean that. You guys are fucking awesome, and I hold a lot of love for you all.

Special thanks for the staff for keeping the site running for us.

Thanks for reading this soppy and serious post. If anyone is struggling with addiction, it is possible to beat even if it’s painfully difficult. Be honest and open up, to yourself first. Don’t be afraid to speak up here. Learn to let love in, and let go of the past.

Again, my sincere thanks to you all.


Here’s the meditation tent at rehab.

View attachment 904522

And a dry sand portrait of my mum’s horse I did in art therapy on the hottest day of the year.

View attachment 904523View attachment 904524

Congratulations brother! March 28th, 2018 was my last. It's great to see another recovering person here!

 

[NoorDZ]

Congratulations be proud of yourself it takes courage to even think about quitting and you already have crossed a lot 🎉🎊💯

 

[Lepeka]

Congratulations on staying sober and strong for the past 5 years!!