Sounds like we have a lot in common. As i told you I’ve been done with alcohol and other shit for a while now, longer than ever since I was 17.
Both my parents were horrible failures but my dad was the bully and verbal abuser. My school experience was horrible too. I am in therapy too and psychiatry for years. there is nothing weak about it. it’s very hard work and brave to face things. Its the opposite of weak.
I agree that weed can become a problem as anything can and you have to be careful yea but it doesn’t do to me what the alcohol and pills do. It seems to work for me but I have to take my psych meds (for add and social phobia mostly) and go to therapy and talk and listen to them and to exercise too is essential. The more tools in your tool belt the better hedge. Therapy can help you be a better husband too. It will be tough but you can do it!
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yes, that's very tough eric, i'm glad you're doing better, and have sworn off alcohol, which is a worse demon than MJ, IMO
it's too bad some get wonderful parents, and some get rotten ones...you, me, and plenty of others
but i've come to the realization that they were simply people with their own problems and mental deficiencies, trying to do their best but failing often
i believe mother ("paternal unit B") was actually mentally ill, and took out her craziness on all her sons...sometimes i feel mad myself
my father, who was a stern man, also beat me when i was a child, but i feel he did it to help paternal unit B, as i'm sure she demanded it
besides calling me an asshole frequently, he didn't beat me for years afterwards, until i had a fight with paternal unit B and, as was his wont, he stepped in to help, save the day, be the tough guy, who knows really
but by this time i was an older teenager, had learned how to fight in the school yard, and didn't back down to him
i told him "if you touch me, i'm going to throw you down the stairs" ... and i certainly would have, as i had had enough
he didn't strike me, and later told paternal unit B that i had finally become a man...like i said, total madness, and i'm glad it's in my past
like dr. frasier crane used to say in a show i loved,
Frasier, "here's wishing you good mental health" ...stay well, eric