train track as method of death and as for have I almost died? Yes, I od'd a few years ago and came close to killing my liver, was in hospital for a week due to non stop vomiting for about 18hrs(literally nonstop, just kept going and fucking going; long past my last little bit of bile) and they had me on some drug that pulled all the shit out of me and let me piss it out, had 2 or 3 blood tests per day with one being drawn directly from the artery for some weird test (hurts like fuck) and I also od'd another time on a drug called baclofen I think it's called, I took a fuck load of tablets (not sure of the mgs of baclofen but I think the bottle had about 50-100 pills) I fell into a coma for like 4 days(not sure if it was a coma or not but whatever; definitely blacked the fuck out) and when I woke up I was covered in piss, freezing cold, dehydrated to the point that breathing was almost agony(legit; I have a pretty decent tolerance for pain; it was horrible) and I kept making the weirdest sounds when I would inhale and exhale, I've never heard anything like it before or since, it was really weird, and I reckon if I had of slept for one or 2 more days I probably would have diedI always wonder if other people think about death as much as I do. I have had a lot of health problems and a few near misses most of which were technically self-inflicted agony. Of course, like everyone else, I would like to just go to sleep and slip into the abyss with no fear or pain. But then my mind makes even that sound like not such a great thing because someone is going to find me, and my family is going to have to widdle my life down to a shoebox of sentimental things. I really want to apologize in advance for all the dildos. But I am pretty sure I'll die from cancer or quite possibly end up with dementia due to the prescription drugs I take. I know smoking causes cancer but so does half the stuff they sell as food in Walmart. I kind of wished I had a clue so I could "go missing" and slip off into some place beautiful and remote so my family could hope instead of the exceptionally painful grief of those left behind after someone decides to remove themselves from the census.
This isn't suicidal idealization or a cry for help I have always been this way even as a kid.
So my questions are... How do you think you'll die, Have you almost died (story time, pictures even better this is GG after all,) and how would you prefer to die?
