Ratsalad
Retard Pothead
Everyone always told me that for the and I never believed them.
If you are thinking about ending your life: IT AIN’T WORTH IT!
By the time I had turned 14, I don’t remember how many times I tried to end my life. Every night I would beg whatever god was listening to put me out of my misery. I hated myself so much. I kept everything inside until it got too much to handle. I suffered from extreme visual/auditory hallucinations and at one point I had barricaded myself into my own room because I was convinced the government was going to kill me. I didn’t eat, I was convinced everything was poisoned and I was emitted into an impatient unit.
I am so thankful I was never successful in any of my suicide attempts, I would have missed out on my entire life. I would have never experienced what its like to feel comfortable in my own body. I don’t believe there is a textbook way of recovery, everyone recovers at their own pace and on their own terms. You will not get better unless you want to live. You have to choose yourself over the things that upset you and make you upset. You have to live to let go of the things you cannot control, or can no longer control. You have to let go.
I don’t quite know why I felt the need to lost this but I feel that someone will benefit from knowing that they are not alone. We all struggle, but there will be a day when you look back and think “damn, I’m glad I got through that.” At the end of the day; It’s not as bad as you think.
I love you! I hope you are living your best life.
- Lucas
If you are thinking about ending your life: IT AIN’T WORTH IT!
By the time I had turned 14, I don’t remember how many times I tried to end my life. Every night I would beg whatever god was listening to put me out of my misery. I hated myself so much. I kept everything inside until it got too much to handle. I suffered from extreme visual/auditory hallucinations and at one point I had barricaded myself into my own room because I was convinced the government was going to kill me. I didn’t eat, I was convinced everything was poisoned and I was emitted into an impatient unit.
I am so thankful I was never successful in any of my suicide attempts, I would have missed out on my entire life. I would have never experienced what its like to feel comfortable in my own body. I don’t believe there is a textbook way of recovery, everyone recovers at their own pace and on their own terms. You will not get better unless you want to live. You have to choose yourself over the things that upset you and make you upset. You have to live to let go of the things you cannot control, or can no longer control. You have to let go.
I don’t quite know why I felt the need to lost this but I feel that someone will benefit from knowing that they are not alone. We all struggle, but there will be a day when you look back and think “damn, I’m glad I got through that.” At the end of the day; It’s not as bad as you think.
I love you! I hope you are living your best life.
- Lucas
