Some videos give me more of an adrenaline buzz than others. Like the Mexican police guys son being flayed. Mostly because he was tough enough to remain conscious until the end and you can see every bit of fear and pain in his face. But I like a buzz and I can’t count how many times I’ve been back for more.
After seeing a Japanese animal torture video years ago of a lady slowly stepping on a kitten in high heels I got so frustrated I couldn’t do the same to the video makers with my wife’s extra high heels (she was a pole dancer when we were students so had crazy weaponised shoes!), I don’t watch them. Fuck, I sound like a gore vegan!
Some of the shit I’ve dealt with in real life is much more emotionally challenging. It’s never broken me but it was very tough at times. Telling young children their parents only have a week to live and watching them break down never ever gets any easier. Or managing end of life care in children. However, I use the emotion as motivation to pull out all the stops to provide the best care I can.
After seeing a Japanese animal torture video years ago of a lady slowly stepping on a kitten in high heels I got so frustrated I couldn’t do the same to the video makers with my wife’s extra high heels (she was a pole dancer when we were students so had crazy weaponised shoes!), I don’t watch them. Fuck, I sound like a gore vegan!
Some of the shit I’ve dealt with in real life is much more emotionally challenging. It’s never broken me but it was very tough at times. Telling young children their parents only have a week to live and watching them break down never ever gets any easier. Or managing end of life care in children. However, I use the emotion as motivation to pull out all the stops to provide the best care I can.
"sometimes, dead is better" -Jud Crandall