Serious Im lost

[Captain GhoulAgain]

Almost 2 days ago my grandmother of 90 years age passed away. I was with her in her home when it happened. She was a tough woman who could be really mean, but also just as sweet. One of my favorite memories of my childhood involved just her and me. She was more like my mother to me than my actual mother. She quit her job to raise me once I was born. I asked her to not go cause I needed her, but it was okay to if she was hurting. The last thing I told her was I would bust hell wide open to get her if I had to. That's something she use to tell me. I loved both of my grandparents greatly and I was prepared when my grandfather passed. It hurt me bad but I was ready. This I wasn't. The home they built the year I was born is now empty for the first time. I haven't been myself as some of my recent post may show. The doctors knew she was dying but couldn't tell us why. It's like she just got done with it all. I been drinking and taking sleeping meds since it happened. It's hard to eat, it's hard to wakeup, it's hard to just exist at this point. I know there will be some trolls try and feed off my sorrow and thats fine. I don't do social media cause I think people should say whatever you want. I will remember if you strike me when I'm down though. Whatever you do when you have a death in your family, please do that for me. A prayer, a drink, a high five, whatever it is. I want my mother to go into her next life knowing I cared more than she knew.
Thanks @Dolly this was a good idea.

 

[Dolly]

I Hope people can be nice here. You are mostly among friends and many of us care very much about each other.

As you know I am very sorry to hear this and these early days are so very hard and painful. Remember you have been very lucky to have been blessed with such wonderful people in your life and they will have been proud they made and shaped you, and will also know you loved them muchly. Pass on their legacy to those around you.

Sending you my deepest sympathy and love x

 

[MATAMUERTOS]

Sorry for your loss.
I offer my sincerest condolences.
Be well, look after yourself.

 

[Humungus]

Awww that’s sad pal so sorry i didn’t know what grandparents were about all mine were gone before I was able to remember them then I saw how my mom and dad were with our son he was their light in this world I watched it and enjoyed seeing them with our lad and I thought so this is what I missed. Hugs Camp Pirate your hurting now but time does take the edge off.

 

[pappa stupid]

I believe, unlike many members, we all meet again and nothing is truly final! This helps me keep focus and not lose myself in loss

 

[Gutsss]

I had a hard time with my Grandmothers death and vented here as well. I was pleasantly surprised by the response I got. Us weirdos will shock you in good ways sometimes. Allow yourself time to grieve, you are doing the right thing by reaching out. It's good you were there with her and she didn't exactly pass alone. She knows how much you love her, just carry on with her in your heart and mind. Go out to her favorite restaurant or maybe watch a movie or play a song she loved. Let her be in that moment with you. My condolences 🙏

 

[M.O.DENGLER]

Heaven, hell, Valhalla, somewhere, nowhere..In the end, we all go to the same place even if it's no place. There's comfort in that.

To die will be an awfully big adventure.

 

[igotyour40acres]

Very sorry to hear this. I know this is an "odd" message board, but I would hope there's no beta-cuck limp dick assholes that would disrespect the memory of your Grandmother here. We're all human, and losing someone close is painful. I sincerely offer my condolences.

 

[Bethy 🔥]

Sending my deepest empathy. I think some people dont realize the role that grandparents can play in our lives, especially at a young age and when they take on a parental role. They already raised their children and its like starting life over when they raise or parent their grandkids. Grandparents deserve more credit than they are given. Thry pass down gems of wisdom and some old fashion values that help carry you in life. Hold onto those memories. They help carry you through the hard times that you are gonna face. Be well my friend..

 

[Cauntsniff]

Almost 2 days ago my grandmother of 90 years age passed away. I was with her in her home when it happened. She was a tough woman who could be really mean, but also just as sweet. One of my favorite memories of my childhood involved just her and me. She was more like my mother to me than my actual mother. She quit her job to raise me once I was born. I asked her to not go cause I needed her, but it was okay to if she was hurting. The last thing I told her was I would bust hell wide open to get her if I had to. That's something she use to tell me. I loved both of my grandparents greatly and I was prepared when my grandfather passed. It hurt me bad but I was ready. This I wasn't. The home they built the year I was born is now empty for the first time. I haven't been myself as some of my recent post may show. The doctors knew she was dying but couldn't tell us why. It's like she just got done with it all. I been drinking and taking sleeping meds since it happened. It's hard to eat, it's hard to wakeup, it's hard to just exist at this point. I know there will be some trolls try and feed off my sorrow and thats fine. I don't do social media cause I think people should say whatever you want. I will remember if you strike me when I'm down though. Whatever you do when you have a death in your family, please do that for me. A prayer, a drink, a high five, whatever it is. I want my mother to go into her next life knowing I cared more than she knew.
Thanks @Dolly this was a good idea.

My missus mum passed away at the end of last year and as I tell her the pain never goes it just gets easier to cope with she breaks every few week cos she can't hear her mums voice see her smile go tobher for advice etc death is totally natural and 100% unavoidable man and at least she got to live till 90! That's a big number think of all the amazing things she's lived to see n gone through the great times she had with you and all her kids n grandkids etc

I mean do u think the last thought she had dying was a negative one seeing loved ones around her all sad that she was leaving this shit show cos at that point all you could feel is massive love n respect serenity peace, you will be OK bud and we are all sorry for your loss, be strong dude

 

[RobotGoy]

No doubt some trolls will try to be cunts..
Anyway, I offer my condolences.
it’s a sad thing but life is like this for everyone.
I lost 5 people this past year! 3 to suicide and 2 to accidental deaths.
Shit sucks so enjoy life while you can.

 

[rottenfresh]

So very sorry for your loss. I know that you are hurting but getting through it is a process. You will feel so many emotions and remember so many little things . Do something for yourself that you know she would smile about.

 

[Rosie]

Sometimes words cannot express the pain of grief or change the way we feel.
My sincerest condolences.

 

[blacknambala]

My condolences for your loss.

 

[McTwatFace]

Doesn't matter what type of person u r, we all hurt at the loss of a loved one. 😔
Once the shock of it all eases up, you will be left with some wonderful and happy memories. Share them with your loved ones x

 

[Chew.Kok]

I can not feel what you are going through since i never got to see my grandparents. My sincere condolences. Always keep your wonderful memories together alive!❤️

 

[Flatus Tube]

Firstly, you have given her one of the greatest gifts a human can give to another. The only two things in our lives that cannot be changed is we are all born, and we will all die. Everything else between those events can happen differently, and the birth and death can potentially go well, or can also go badly.

You were there to comfort her through her death, making it a good death. That truly is a great gift, privilege, and definitely something to be proud of. Keeping positive thoughts like this in your mind can help through the grieving process, but also bear in mind ‘negative’ thoughts are normal. That’s just how the mind works. Try to let any ‘negative’ thoughts just pass by and then bring back a positive thought and process that in more detail using your ‘human’ mind (the frontal lobe).

It’s normal for our brains to dissociate from reality in the immediate time after a bereavement. This means our thoughts are hazy and it’s harder to focus. The subconscious mind can speak more loudly as the ‘human’ consciousness is basically stoned. It’s the subconscious that plays tricks on us making us feel shit. But the thoughts that flood your head are not actually ‘you’. You are the one that ‘hears’ those thoughts. Therefore, letting them pass by (as we can’t stop them) rather than dwelling on them helps.

The fact you have felt able to be vulnerable here shows true courage, as the amazing Brene Brown says. Letting your shit out to people you feel have earned the right to listen really helps.

My thoughts are with you matey. I’ll reiterate you really have given your grandmother a properly amazing gift. Much respect for that!

 

[SPHINCTERPUNCH]

Almost 2 days ago my grandmother of 90 years age passed away. I was with her in her home when it happened. She was a tough woman who could be really mean, but also just as sweet. One of my favorite memories of my childhood involved just her and me. She was more like my mother to me than my actual mother. She quit her job to raise me once I was born. I asked her to not go cause I needed her, but it was okay to if she was hurting. The last thing I told her was I would bust hell wide open to get her if I had to. That's something she use to tell me. I loved both of my grandparents greatly and I was prepared when my grandfather passed. It hurt me bad but I was ready. This I wasn't. The home they built the year I was born is now empty for the first time. I haven't been myself as some of my recent post may show. The doctors knew she was dying but couldn't tell us why. It's like she just got done with it all. I been drinking and taking sleeping meds since it happened. It's hard to eat, it's hard to wakeup, it's hard to just exist at this point. I know there will be some trolls try and feed off my sorrow and thats fine. I don't do social media cause I think people should say whatever you want. I will remember if you strike me when I'm down though. Whatever you do when you have a death in your family, please do that for me. A prayer, a drink, a high five, whatever it is. I want my mother to go into her next life knowing I cared more than she knew.
Thanks @Dolly this was a good idea.

Sorry to hear of Your Loss My Friend! May Your loving Nana RIP...Hang Tuff Gorefriend! 🍺🍺'S 🤘🏻🤘🏼🤙...SP

 

[kesha13]

Almost 2 days ago my grandmother of 90 years age passed away. I was with her in her home when it happened. She was a tough woman who could be really mean, but also just as sweet. One of my favorite memories of my childhood involved just her and me. She was more like my mother to me than my actual mother. She quit her job to raise me once I was born. I asked her to not go cause I needed her, but it was okay to if she was hurting. The last thing I told her was I would bust hell wide open to get her if I had to. That's something she use to tell me. I loved both of my grandparents greatly and I was prepared when my grandfather passed. It hurt me bad but I was ready. This I wasn't. The home they built the year I was born is now empty for the first time. I haven't been myself as some of my recent post may show. The doctors knew she was dying but couldn't tell us why. It's like she just got done with it all. I been drinking and taking sleeping meds since it happened. It's hard to eat, it's hard to wakeup, it's hard to just exist at this point. I know there will be some trolls try and feed off my sorrow and thats fine. I don't do social media cause I think people should say whatever you want. I will remember if you strike me when I'm down though. Whatever you do when you have a death in your family, please do that for me. A prayer, a drink, a high five, whatever it is. I want my mother to go into her next life knowing I cared more than she knew.
Thanks @Dolly this was a good idea.

Sorry for your loss.❤️
It's a cliche, but time is a great healer. I was raised on and off by my maternal grandparents, both died when I was in my teens, and yeah it sucks.
Best advice I can give is think of the happiest times you can, and keep that memory alive.

 

[SPHINCTERPUNCH]

Firstly, you have given her one of the greatest gifts a human can give to another. The only two things in our lives that cannot be changed is we are all born, and we will all die. Everything else between those events can happen differently, and the birth and death can potentially go well, or can also go badly.

You were there to comfort her through her death, making it a good death. That truly is a great gift, privilege, and definitely something to be proud of. Keeping positive thoughts like this in your mind can help through the grieving process, but also bear in mind ‘negative’ thoughts are normal. That’s just how the mind works. Try to let any ‘negative’ thoughts just pass by and then bring back a positive thought and process that in more detail using your ‘human’ mind (the frontal lobe).

It’s normal for our brains to dissociate from reality in the immediate time after a bereavement. This means our thoughts are hazy and it’s harder to focus. The subconscious mind can speak more loudly as the ‘human’ consciousness is basically stoned. It’s the subconscious that plays tricks on us making us feel shit. But the thoughts that flood your head are not actually ‘you’. You are the one that ‘hears’ those thoughts. Therefore, letting them pass by (as we can’t stop them) rather than dwelling on them helps.

The fact you have felt able to be vulnerable here shows true courage, as the amazing Brene Brown says. Letting your shit out to people you feel have earned the right to listen really helps.

My thoughts are with you matey. I’ll reiterate you really have given your grandmother a properly amazing gift. Much respect for that!

🤙...SP