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Have u ever experienced psychosis?

schizogangrape

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I have the schizophrenic and bipolar with psychotic features gene from my mothers family im still fairly young but due to my drug use and stressful lifestyle I have had full on psychotic breaks before.Which I always deeply “regret” after I come out of it , I’m curious about ur experiences with it cause personally it’s the scariest most haunting thing I have ever experienced .
My first psychotic break was the worst,it sent me to juvenile detention basically that one was caused by lack of sleep , I took a short nap and that’s when it started. u lose all control over urself and u can’t stop it , hallucinations paranoia everything uve ever felt on a bad trip but 10x multiplied
My second break happened randomly at a faculty , I was dating this Shit bag good for nothing guy and we had fought before me going to study there , when I sat down I just felt that initial rush and that out of body feeling, I did have more control cause I knew I had to get somewhere I deemed safe I still had some sanity I basically took my stuff left and when I got outside everyone’s faces started to look demonic people were chasing after me and I started running to the bus stop to where I felt a bit more safe but couldn’t stop staring at this one woman I thought was a witch following me all along
And then there’s the “mini schizophrenic “ moments i get here and there such as delusions of grandeur or just extreme irrational paranoia also word salad or weird disorganised speech as u can probably tell, that one’s more annoying cz it’s harder to hide lol
 
Never to that extreme. Sorry, that has to be dreadfully scary to go through.
My alcoholism brought me dark places of deperation and despair.
I was pissed off all the time at everybody and everything.
I've been sober now for a long time but am still fearful of the places alcohol took me.
I hope you can find some sort of medicine and/or therapy to help you cope.
Best of luck!
 
Never to that extreme. Sorry, that has to be dreadfully scary to go through.
My alcoholism brought me dark places of deperation and despair.
I was pissed off all the time at everybody and everything.
I've been sober now for a long time but am still fearful of the places alcohol took me.
I hope you can find some sort of medicine and/or therapy to help you cope.
Best of luck!
Someone's in a rather polite mood tonight.....where's tube and what have you done with him?
 
I have the schizophrenic and bipolar with psychotic features gene from my mothers family im still fairly young but due to my drug use and stressful lifestyle I have had full on psychotic breaks before.Which I always deeply “regret” after I come out of it , I’m curious about ur experiences with it cause personally it’s the scariest most haunting thing I have ever experienced .
My first psychotic break was the worst,it sent me to juvenile detention basically that one was caused by lack of sleep , I took a short nap and that’s when it started. u lose all control over urself and u can’t stop it , hallucinations paranoia everything uve ever felt on a bad trip but 10x multiplied
My second break happened randomly at a faculty , I was dating this Shit bag good for nothing guy and we had fought before me going to study there , when I sat down I just felt that initial rush and that out of body feeling, I did have more control cause I knew I had to get somewhere I deemed safe I still had some sanity I basically took my stuff left and when I got outside everyone’s faces started to look demonic people were chasing after me and I started running to the bus stop to where I felt a bit more safe but couldn’t stop staring at this one woman I thought was a witch following me all along
And then there’s the “mini schizophrenic “ moments i get here and there such as delusions of grandeur or just extreme irrational paranoia also word salad or weird disorganised speech as u can probably tell, that one’s more annoying cz it’s harder to hide lol
You changed your username from prettylittlebutterfly to schizogangrape?
Well, that's an excellent way to improve the state of your mental health. Good luck.
 
I have the schizophrenic and bipolar with psychotic features gene from my mothers family im still fairly young but due to my drug use and stressful lifestyle I have had full on psychotic breaks before.Which I always deeply “regret” after I come out of it , I’m curious about ur experiences with it cause personally it’s the scariest most haunting thing I have ever experienced .
My first psychotic break was the worst,it sent me to juvenile detention basically that one was caused by lack of sleep , I took a short nap and that’s when it started. u lose all control over urself and u can’t stop it , hallucinations paranoia everything uve ever felt on a bad trip but 10x multiplied
My second break happened randomly at a faculty , I was dating this Shit bag good for nothing guy and we had fought before me going to study there , when I sat down I just felt that initial rush and that out of body feeling, I did have more control cause I knew I had to get somewhere I deemed safe I still had some sanity I basically took my stuff left and when I got outside everyone’s faces started to look demonic people were chasing after me and I started running to the bus stop to where I felt a bit more safe but couldn’t stop staring at this one woman I thought was a witch following me all along
And then there’s the “mini schizophrenic “ moments i get here and there such as delusions of grandeur or just extreme irrational paranoia also word salad or weird disorganised speech as u can probably tell, that one’s more annoying cz it’s harder to hide lol
I've lived with it for the last couple of decades, but all I can tell you is what doesn't work for me and that is more alcohol and drugs. I relied on them in hopes of numbing the pain and forgetting the past, but unfortunately you can't choose what memories to drink away. Staying clean would likely be beneficial. Good luck!
 
I have the schizophrenic and bipolar with psychotic features gene from my mothers family im still fairly young but due to my drug use and stressful lifestyle I have had full on psychotic breaks before.Which I always deeply “regret” after I come out of it , I’m curious about ur experiences with it cause personally it’s the scariest most haunting thing I have ever experienced .
My first psychotic break was the worst,it sent me to juvenile detention basically that one was caused by lack of sleep , I took a short nap and that’s when it started. u lose all control over urself and u can’t stop it , hallucinations paranoia everything uve ever felt on a bad trip but 10x multiplied
My second break happened randomly at a faculty , I was dating this Shit bag good for nothing guy and we had fought before me going to study there , when I sat down I just felt that initial rush and that out of body feeling, I did have more control cause I knew I had to get somewhere I deemed safe I still had some sanity I basically took my stuff left and when I got outside everyone’s faces started to look demonic people were chasing after me and I started running to the bus stop to where I felt a bit more safe but couldn’t stop staring at this one woman I thought was a witch following me all along
And then there’s the “mini schizophrenic “ moments i get here and there such as delusions of grandeur or just extreme irrational paranoia also word salad or weird disorganised speech as u can probably tell, that one’s more annoying cz it’s harder to hide lol
What's a gan grape taste like? I've NVR ever had one! Lmfao,🤣🤣🤣...SP
 
Ive known a couple schizophrenics. Im sure all episodes are different but an old room mate would stop taking his meds and his mental state would deteriorate over a period of days or weeks. Never seemed to be a sudden instantaneous switch. His personality would change like he seemed more grave/serious wasnt laughing as much. Then id notice him make weird statements here and there. The one night i came home and he was in his boxers in the corner saying "the moneys in the safe, leave my family alone!" I called his brother, they ended up sending him to the hospital to get back on his meds. Scary stuff.
 
Never anything like that. My brain going tilt has always been medication induced, specifically a bad reaction to certain synthetic opioids like meperidine & oxycodone. I experience visual & auditory hallucinations. Shit like the walls bleeding or them being waterfalls, seeing bugs in the ceiling, hearing voices and having conversations with people who aren't there and in languages that don't exist. Wouldn't be so bad but meperidine also doesn't provide me any pain relief. So I'd still be in extreme pain but be a babbling idiot so I couldn't tell the nurses I was in pain. Thankfully its not a drug they use much anymore.

Hydromorphone at higher doses makes me see weird shit and I trip balls but at least dulls the pain.
 
I have the schizophrenic and bipolar with psychotic features gene from my mothers family im still fairly young but due to my drug use and stressful lifestyle I have had full on psychotic breaks before.Which I always deeply “regret” after I come out of it , I’m curious about ur experiences with it cause personally it’s the scariest most haunting thing I have ever experienced .
My first psychotic break was the worst,it sent me to juvenile detention basically that one was caused by lack of sleep , I took a short nap and that’s when it started. u lose all control over urself and u can’t stop it , hallucinations paranoia everything uve ever felt on a bad trip but 10x multiplied
My second break happened randomly at a faculty , I was dating this Shit bag good for nothing guy and we had fought before me going to study there , when I sat down I just felt that initial rush and that out of body feeling, I did have more control cause I knew I had to get somewhere I deemed safe I still had some sanity I basically took my stuff left and when I got outside everyone’s faces started to look demonic people were chasing after me and I started running to the bus stop to where I felt a bit more safe but couldn’t stop staring at this one woman I thought was a witch following me all along
And then there’s the “mini schizophrenic “ moments i get here and there such as delusions of grandeur or just extreme irrational paranoia also word salad or weird disorganised speech as u can probably tell, that one’s more annoying cz it’s harder to hide lol
No. Have you ever taken meds? Because you definitely need them.
 
Never to that extreme. Sorry, that has to be dreadfully scary to go through.
My alcoholism brought me dark places of deperation and despair.
I was pissed off all the time at everybody and everything.
I've been sober now for a long time but am still fearful of the places alcohol took me.
I hope you can find some sort of medicine and/or therapy to help you cope.
Best of luck!
If you ever relapse, and are willing to do anything for $20, send me a private message. I have some ideas for you and Road Pavement.

Jk. Good job on the sobriety :)
 
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I have the schizophrenic and bipolar with psychotic features gene from my mothers family im still fairly young but due to my drug use and stressful lifestyle I have had full on psychotic breaks before.Which I always deeply “regret” after I come out of it , I’m curious about ur experiences with it cause personally it’s the scariest most haunting thing I have ever experienced .
My first psychotic break was the worst,it sent me to juvenile detention basically that one was caused by lack of sleep , I took a short nap and that’s when it started. u lose all control over urself and u can’t stop it , hallucinations paranoia everything uve ever felt on a bad trip but 10x multiplied
My second break happened randomly at a faculty , I was dating this Shit bag good for nothing guy and we had fought before me going to study there , when I sat down I just felt that initial rush and that out of body feeling, I did have more control cause I knew I had to get somewhere I deemed safe I still had some sanity I basically took my stuff left and when I got outside everyone’s faces started to look demonic people were chasing after me and I started running to the bus stop to where I felt a bit more safe but couldn’t stop staring at this one woman I thought was a witch following me all along
And then there’s the “mini schizophrenic “ moments i get here and there such as delusions of grandeur or just extreme irrational paranoia also word salad or weird disorganised speech as u can probably tell, that one’s more annoying cz it’s harder to hide lol
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Had a bad trip recently on marijuana. Never tried it before so my brother thought fuck it, heres 3 joints for your birthday (im 31).

First joint, nice relaxing but nothing special. Smoked it slow and steady as he told me to.

2nd join, fuck it let's get high, whats the worse that can happen right? I smoked the whole thing in about 30 seconds.

In 20 minutes I was tripping balls. I had a massive panic attack and my mind was going crazy. Complete hallucinations and paranoia to the point I was completely terrified fighting my own thoughts. The trip lasted about 6 hours, probably because my body isn't used to smoking it at all since the kast joint only lasted about an hour ish.

When I woke up the next morning I felt like I'd been mentally tortured. Took me days to fully recover lol.
 
I have the schizophrenic and bipolar with psychotic features gene from my mothers family im still fairly young but due to my drug use and stressful lifestyle I have had full on psychotic breaks before.Which I always deeply “regret” after I come out of it , I’m curious about ur experiences with it cause personally it’s the scariest most haunting thing I have ever experienced .
My first psychotic break was the worst,it sent me to juvenile detention basically that one was caused by lack of sleep , I took a short nap and that’s when it started. u lose all control over urself and u can’t stop it , hallucinations paranoia everything uve ever felt on a bad trip but 10x multiplied
My second break happened randomly at a faculty , I was dating this Shit bag good for nothing guy and we had fought before me going to study there , when I sat down I just felt that initial rush and that out of body feeling, I did have more control cause I knew I had to get somewhere I deemed safe I still had some sanity I basically took my stuff left and when I got outside everyone’s faces started to look demonic people were chasing after me and I started running to the bus stop to where I felt a bit more safe but couldn’t stop staring at this one woman I thought was a witch following me all along
And then there’s the “mini schizophrenic “ moments i get here and there such as delusions of grandeur or just extreme irrational paranoia also word salad or weird disorganised speech as u can probably tell, that one’s more annoying cz it’s harder to hide lol
You kids, always have to have the latest illness to make yourselves more credible, and announce your ailments to the world, mental health issues is super popular this year, knocking fake tourettes off the top spot .In the old days you kept being a bit nuts to yourself, and frankly it was shameful to even be depressed. I do wish you people would learn to have an actual personality not defined by your special ailments and /or gender/sexual preferences.
 
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