I personally have never killed any human. I use to find an enjoyment in shooting small game with my 22 and 17HMR out back when I was a kid. Like really enjoyed it, the thrill, the kill, the hole 9. I use to think I was a serial killer lol but thankfully it stopped at gore. I could imagine that it really depends on the mindset of the individual doing the killing and there level of empathetic introspection... I'll never forget my dad who was a decorated Old Ironside Tank Driver and 2nd Infantryman in Vietnam when after years of denying he killed anyone in combat I found pictures of him sitting on a tank with literally dozens of slashmarks on it (indicating kills) while holding a half rotten half burned up human skull. I confronted him and during the talk I was like "Dad what was it like to kill somebody".... You know what he said while looking me dead in my eyes. "Recoil on my shoulder".... That took a second to sync in I was about to ask him again and it hit me... And just his look in his eyes.



