Self Harm - have you, do you and what?

[Bling Zombie]

Have you ever self harmed? Do you still do it? If so what do you do to your body? This is not an excuse to get all emotional or personal - that's not my intention anyway. It's just an interest I have in the subject and I'm fascinated with the things we do to our bodies.

I'm 40 and have self harmed off and on since I was a young teenager. Here's what I've done so far:

Cuts - with razor blades, broken glass and knives
Burns - with an iron and naked flame
Stabbed myself with a knife
Hit my face, arms and legs with a metal hammer
Punched a wall
Pulled my hair out
Bulimia
Pulled my toe nails off
Picked scabs so they didn't heal for months
Whipped myself until bruised
Punched myself in the face until bruised
Scratched myself until I bled


If I think of anymore I'll add them.....

 

[D.N.R.]

Have you been diagnosed with a mental illness or personality disorder?
No I have never self harmed.

 

[C_R]

Got any pics?

 

[MATAMUERTOS]

you ARE serious about it.

 

[LornaDee]

nope, not me

 

[Mickey]

I used to cut, but I quit several years ago. I started with broken glass, then I started using a box cutter. I cut mainly on my left arm, but I also cut a few times on both sides of my ribcage. I still have hundreds of scars from cutting. I've never done any of the other things you listed, but I constantly have thoughts of doing fucked up shit(Stabbing myself in various body parts, cutting my own throat, disemboweling myself, etc.) to myself. I have these kind of thoughts all the time. I started having these thoughts a few years ago and I don't know why.

 

[Bling Zombie]

Have you been diagnosed with a mental illness or personality disorder?
No I have never self harmed.

Yes I was diagnosed years ago with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (called Borderline in the USA). Plus I have a few other things - they do like to stick labels on us! I mainly do it these days because I like it, not because I'm having a bad time....I guess that sounds quite macabre, but I'm happy with it, it's my body after all.

 

[C_R]

I used to cut, but I quit several years ago. I started with broken glass, then I started using a box cutter. I cut mainly on my left arm, but I also cut a few times on both sides of my ribcage. I still have hundreds of scars from cutting. I've never done any of the other things you listed, but I constantly have thoughts of doing fucked up shit(Stabbing myself in various body parts, cutting my own throat, disemboweling myself, etc.) to myself. I have these kind of thoughts all the time. I started having these thoughts a few years ago and I don't know why.

Get away from yourself nukka!

 

[Bling Zombie]

Got any pics?

I can take some pics of my scars - they're pretty impressive I think. Next time I self harm I shall take some pics and post them here.

 

[D.N.R.]

Yes I was diagnosed years ago with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (called Borderline in the USA). Plus I have a few other things - they do like to stick labels on us! I mainly do it these days because I like it, not because I'm having a bad time....I guess that sounds quite macabre, but I'm happy with it, it's my body after all.

I am very familiar with BPD. My mom has it. I don't have any contact with her and haven't for the past 19 years.

 

[C_R]

Well BPD'ers aren't known for being the stable type. It's best to stay the fuck away from them. Forever.

 

[Bling Zombie]

I used to cut, but I quit several years ago. I started with broken glass, then I started using a box cutter. I cut mainly on my left arm, but I also cut a few times on both sides of my ribcage. I still have hundreds of scars from cutting. I've never done any of the other things you listed, but I constantly have thoughts of doing fucked up shit(Stabbing myself in various body parts, cutting my own throat, disemboweling myself, etc.) to myself. I have these kind of thoughts all the time. I started having these thoughts a few years ago and I don't know why.

I cut my neck during a bad episode. I missed the vein and artery thankfully but I have a two inch scar. When I stabbed myself blood spurted at least a metre across the room and it was very scary - I knew straight away I had overdone it - not recommended!

 

[Bling Zombie]

I am very familiar with BPD. My mom has it. I don't have any contact with her and haven't for the past 19 years.

I think my mother had it too. But I don't have anything to do with the paedo witch anymore! (That's a whole other story)

 

[Bling Zombie]

Well BPD'ers aren't known for being the stable type. It's best to stay the fuck away from them. Forever.

Nice. They probably wouldn't want to know you either! Do you know many?

 

[C_R]

Nice. They probably wouldn't want to know you either! Do you know many?

Oh don't get all offended just because I spoke badly of your chemical imbalance.

 

[Bling Zombie]

Oh don't get all offended just because I spoke badly of your chemical imbalance.

I wasn't offended! It takes more than taking the piss out of my mental illness to offend me, I've learnt the world is full of ignorant people - ignorant towards mental disorders that is. Don't worry I'm not about to cut myself LOL. Today has been a good day so nothing can upset me right now! Besides I kinda like being unbalanced

 

[Animal Mother]

I knew a guy who would do it in high school, he wasn't a emo type of person either just a bully at the time, he also wasn't ashamed of it and would wear tank tops all the time. Most of it was on his shoulders and it was very noticeable.

 

[C_R]

I wasn't offended! It takes more than taking the piss out of my mental illness to offend me, I've learnt the world is full of ignorant people - ignorant towards mental disorders that it. Don't worry I'm not about to cut myself LOL. Today has been a good day so nothing can upset me right now! Besides I kinda like being unbalanced

I'm not ignorant to mental disorders at all, lady.

 

[Bling Zombie]

I'm not ignorant to mental disorders at all, lady.

Glad to hear it

 

[Bling Zombie]

I knew a guy who would do it in high school, he wasn't a emo type of person either just a bully at the time, he also wasn't ashamed of it and would wear tank tops all the time. Most of it was on his shoulders and it was very noticeable.

I cover mine up as they are very noticeable, with long sleeves. But I can't hide the ones on my neck unless I wear a scarf all day, which I won't do!