My Demise ( not that you care. )

[SickToDeath]

So long story short, because I just don't have the energy right no w. I'm reaching a point in my life where I really have to make a decision If I want to go on like this and it's not a phase of bullshit. I've struggled for my entire life and I'm older now of building a good life and getting taken out by severe depression and intense waves of relapse. Like real hardcore benders that take you to crash out. I can't do this anymore man. I can't recover this time and I don't want to period. If I go this time it's gonna be to the death of me I'll make sure of it. I don't even care about taking care of myself or eating when I'm on them and I get good jobs man but it's always something and I'm back to nothing and having to build back it gets draining and is this who I really am? I got to go to work this morning in a couple hours I've been out Friday, all weekend and Monday and I just didn't even call in on Friday. I haven't ate or showered or changed my clothes and did anything but spend all my time and money numbing myself, real hardcore depression. And I justs started another bende I have to decide what I'm gonna do for real I can't and won't build it back this time.

Are you still around? 🤔
Im just wondering.

 

[REDRUM616]

So long story short, because I just don't have the energy right no w. I'm reaching a point in my life where I really have to make a decision If I want to go on like this and it's not a phase of bullshit. I've struggled for my entire life and I'm older now of building a good life and getting taken out by severe depression and intense waves of relapse. Like real hardcore benders that take you to crash out. I can't do this anymore man. I can't recover this time and I don't want to period. If I go this time it's gonna be to the death of me I'll make sure of it. I don't even care about taking care of myself or eating when I'm on them and I get good jobs man but it's always something and I'm back to nothing and having to build back it gets draining and is this who I really am? I got to go to work this morning in a couple hours I've been out Friday, all weekend and Monday and I just didn't even call in on Friday. I haven't ate or showered or changed my clothes and did anything but spend all my time and money numbing myself, real hardcore depression. And I justs started another bende I have to decide what I'm gonna do for real I can't and won't build it back this time.

I’m sorry to hear. I know what you’re going through. I really don’t have any words that will help. I’m going to try and stop drinking myself after about 23 years of non stop drinking.

 

[SickToDeath]

I’m sorry to hear. I know what you’re going through. I really don’t have any words that will help. I’m going to try and stop drinking myself after about 23 years of non stop drinking.

I gave it up about 2 years ago. Along with smoking.

 

[REDRUM616]

I gave it up about 2 years ago. Along with smoking.

Was it hard? I don’t smoke anymore but I vape. I’m wondering if I can just quit completely without complications. I drink a bottle per day of rum.

 

[SickToDeath]

Was it hard? I don’t smoke anymore but I vape. I’m wondering if I can just quit completely without complications. I drink a bottle per day of rum.

Nah, not for me. But I wasnt a bottle of liquor a day type of drinker. I drank everyday, but not liquor.
I hope you can give it up soon. Theres places you can go to safely detox.

 

[REDRUM616]

Nah, not for me. But I wasnt a bottle of liquor a day type of drinker. I drank everyday, but not liquor.
I hope you can give it up soon. Theres places you can go to safely detox.

I’ll try it. Wish me luck.

 

[miketeevee13]

🙄

 

[SickToDeath]

I’ll try it. Wish me luck.

Friend of mine is a heavy drinker, im trying to help to get him to give it up.
Hes native(go figures...) he's says that withdrawals can kill him, I say what the fuck do you think the liquor is doing? That shit is not medicine. 😅
Do some research about quitting, and what it takes to do it. I wish you all the luck.

 

[REDRUM616]

Friend of mine is a heavy drinker, im trying to help to get him to give it up.
Hes native(go figures...) he's says that withdrawals can kill him, I say what the fuck do you think the liquor is doing? That shit is not medicine. 😅
Do some research about quitting, and what it takes to do it. I wish you all the luck.

Thank you I will.