Watching death up close (discussion)

[Gutsss]

So my natural morbid curiosity started extremely young. I grew up on rotten.com/ ogrish/best gore/the ync and now goregrish. I have seen a lot of death and I may even be slightly addicted to seeing it. Recently my grandmother was diagnosed with bladder cancer and has been on kidney dialysis for 5 years. We knew she didn't have much time, but now she isn't even going to make it 3 weeks after her cancer diagnosis. We have a hospice set up and have been watching her slowly die over the course of 3 days.. her breathing is labored and slow but still rolling deep. I used to think a really shitty way to go is to get shot or decapitated by the cartel. I'm now realizing that the shittiest way to go is in hospice, with your family seeing your contorted body lose life slowly over a few days all while talking like you can't hear everything. Just too medicated to move.. I now think I see why some of these people just say fuck it and eat a bullet or jump off a high rise.. anyways just some random shit going through my head that I can't really talk about with anyone other than some fellow sickos. Cheers.
Somehow, she's still chugging along. Day 3 is just starting. I think it will be soon though, I've seen these labored breaths before

 

[Humungus]

That sucks big time I know it’s one of the hardest things people get to do at some point hang in there.

 

[(G.O.A.T.) Tubemonkey]

Watching my own dad go down over the course of years suffering with Alzheimer's made me a big fan of a brutal but quick death vs. a slow and demented one.... On the bright side, it's hereditary. Maybe I'll luck out and get hit by a bus....

 

[Racist Bastard]

So my natural morbid curiosity started extremely young. I grew up on rotten.com/ ogrish/best gore/the ync and now goregrish. I have seen a lot of death and I may even be slightly addicted to seeing it. Recently my grandmother was diagnosed with bladder cancer and has been on kidney dialysis for 5 years. We knew she didn't have much time, but now she isn't even going to make it 3 weeks after her cancer diagnosis. We have a hospice set up and have been watching her slowly die over the course of 3 days.. her breathing is labored and slow but still rolling deep. I used to think a really shitty way to go is to get shot or decapitated by the cartel. I'm now realizing that the shittiest way to go is in hospice, with your family seeing your contorted body lose life slowly over a few days all while talking like you can't hear everything. Just too medicated to move.. I now think I see why some of these people just say fuck it and eat a bullet or jump off a high rise.. anyways just some random shit going through my head that I can't really talk about with anyone other than some fellow sickos. Cheers.
Somehow, she's still chugging along. Day 3 is just starting. I think it will be soon though, I've seen these labored breaths before

Sorry you're going through this. I've been there and it's one of the hardest things you will ever have yo do. I hope she passes soon and with minimal pain. Always here if u wanna talk.

 

[Götterdämmerung]

I'm a narcissist. If you don't know the clinical term of that, it's not about loving yourself. It's more about not having the emotional depth to care about others in the deep meaningful way that one might expect. My father and I had a strained relationship throughout our lives and towards the end of his life I moved in to be his daily caregiver. Watching him slowly succumb I dreaded the inevitable 'died with his family around his bedside'. Fortunately, for me, it happened in the height of the Covid crisis and we weren't allowed in the palliative care ward (though it happened in the middle of the night and they snuck my sibs in. they knew how I felt and didn't tell me until after it was over).
Anyways, you seem to be doing just fine, all things considered. Money and suffering and dignity, all amongst the tornado of emotions and feelings and decisions. Hopefully when you look back you'll just remember the good things.

 

[patricia]

It's the most difficult thing to watch a loved one pass away every day seems like a week, I did the same with my grandad in side i was begging him to go in the end that rattling breath became unbearable. I am sorry you are going through this and i hope your grandma will pass soon and with no pain. The thing that gave me some comfort was that he died in my arms and he was so loved and i made sure he was in no pain, Just like your grandma is doing now. not everyone is lucky enough to pass with loved ones around them. I am a stranger but if you need some one to talk to i am hear, I will be thinking about you both. big hugs.

 

[Ellzibette]

This is why I am a strong proponent of physician assisted suicide. When death is inevitable and will be round in short order...I see no humanity in prolonging suffering neither for the person dying nor their families.

 

[hoze123]

This is why I am a strong proponent of physician assisted suicide. When death is inevitable and will be round in short order...I see no humanity in prolonging suffering neither for the person dying nor their families.

Overdose of opiates seem like a good idea for suicide

 

[Ellzibette]

Overdose of opiates seem like a good idea for suicide

Don't ODs usually die of respiratory failure? That doesn't sound pleasant.

 

[M.O.DENGLER]

An old fellow of my acquaintance, who's 85, has recently been diagnosed with terminal cancer and has been told he has 3 months left. Being a kind cunt I bought him some drinks and offered him sympathy, deep and meant. He just started roaring and laughing and told me if you get told you have 3 months left to live when you're 85, it's like a fucking lottery win.

 

[Venture _Capitalist]

i was sooo lucky. my Mom died from a ruptured aneurysm. here's the interesting part - the day before she died, i woke up with something "nipping at my mind" in the same way that a little yappy dog wants attention. it stayed with me all day long, it just wouldn't let go. i figured "let me call Mom." i called her, we chatted and said good bye.14hrs later i got THE CALL from my sister and that was that.

 

[Gutsss]

Watching my own dad go down over the course of years suffering with Alzheimer's made me a big fan of a brutal but quick death vs. a slow and demented one.... On the bright side, it's hereditary. Maybe I'll luck out and get hit by a bus....

Yeah thats an ugly one too, my grandpa had alzheimers as well and that's a REALLY shitty one to watch. Well if you get alzheimers it's a new adventure everyday and you get to be someone new and somewhere new sometimes! Cheers

 

[Smooby]

It truly is awful that the healthcare industry has these rules about letting people die naturally. My grandfather was fortunate enough to have a very caring doctor help him pass quickly at the end of his life. One thing about hospice is it always seems harder for the family to have to watch, but the person being treated is usually doped up to the point of not feeling pain, silver lining I guess.

 

[Gutsss]

Overdose of opiates seem like a good idea for suicide

Too high of a tolerance but yeah agreed. Just do a butt load (literal butt load, maybe even boof) some fent and just not out at like 75 years old.. maybe 80 if I'm in decent health..also autoerotic asphyxiation would be rad but I'd have to assign my best friend to remove the dildos and cut me down...

An old fellow of my acquaintance, who's 85, has recently been diagnosed with terminal cancer and has been told he has 3 months left. Being a kind cunt I bought him some drinks and offered him sympathy, deep and meant. He just started roaring and laughing and told me if you get told you have 3 months left to live when you're 85, it's like a fucking lottery win.

Lmao he seems rad. Probably true 👍

It truly is awful that the healthcare industry has these rules about letting people die naturally. My grandfather was fortunate enough to have a very caring doctor help him pass quickly at the end of his life. One thing about hospice is it always seems harder for the family to have to watch, but the person being treated is usually doped up to the point of not feeling pain, silver lining I guess.

True now if they could just share with the family so we could take it easier too.. damn.. but agreed, this is just cruel dragging it on for days

 

[RandomGøreGrishUser]

Yup cancer is truly horrid. Fuck cancer. My aunt I grew up with which was like a second mother to me fought breast cancer for around 5 years, she was one of the most jolly souls I’ve ever witnessed, she was the cool party aunt, rocked short hair, and was not afraid of conflict, but would always try and be the jokester before anything. Unfortunately all the cigs she smoked since a young age and drinking caught up to her, watching her transform from that cool aunt to the slightly more timid, weak, dying human she became is truly unsettling to watch. By the end she was swollen like a balloon a few hours before her body just let go, her lymph nodes she had to get removed on one of her arms made a big difference I guess. I believe this is why people made up the idea of souls and something beyond flesh, because truly our sack of meat bodies can become so disgusting and saddening to watch as they go out, when your physical body is getting destroyed your “soul” and everything goes down with it.

 

[JG Ballard]

Unfortunately barbiturates like nembutal, which provide an easy going-to-sleep death, are hard to obtain. There are alternatives however. Plastic bag over the head and fitted snugly at the neck, inert gas like nitrogen pumped in, and it is over within minutes. I've heard that certain types of salts that emit toxic fumes and provide an easy death are also out there. Peaceful Pill is an online book that can be obtained from Exit International that describes these and other techniques. Note that these techniques are undetectable by autopsy so no legal liability to worry about. No reason why grandmom has to suffer at the end.

 

[Rick James]

Hopefully John Wayne Bobbitt can help lift your spirits. He was there for me. Well… part of him was there for me.

 

[patricia]

So my natural morbid curiosity started extremely young. I grew up on rotten.com/ ogrish/best gore/the ync and now goregrish. I have seen a lot of death and I may even be slightly addicted to seeing it. Recently my grandmother was diagnosed with bladder cancer and has been on kidney dialysis for 5 years. We knew she didn't have much time, but now she isn't even going to make it 3 weeks after her cancer diagnosis. We have a hospice set up and have been watching her slowly die over the course of 3 days.. her breathing is labored and slow but still rolling deep. I used to think a really shitty way to go is to get shot or decapitated by the cartel. I'm now realizing that the shittiest way to go is in hospice, with your family seeing your contorted body lose life slowly over a few days all while talking like you can't hear everything. Just too medicated to move.. I now think I see why some of these people just say fuck it and eat a bullet or jump off a high rise.. anyways just some random shit going through my head that I can't really talk about with anyone other than some fellow sickos. Cheers.
Somehow, she's still chugging along. Day 3 is just starting. I think it will be soon though, I've seen these labored breaths before

Just of up to bed before i go i just want you to know i'm thinking about you both Gutsss i will check in again in the morning to see how you are.

 

[Panzercat79]

I'm sorry you're going through this,I watched my mom die in such a way.I really felt as a life long junkie she would be happy to die in hospice,I was wrong.Sorry I'm sure this is of little comfort,but death sucks.

 

[SPHINCTERPUNCH]

So my natural morbid curiosity started extremely young. I grew up on rotten.com/ ogrish/best gore/the ync and now goregrish. I have seen a lot of death and I may even be slightly addicted to seeing it. Recently my grandmother was diagnosed with bladder cancer and has been on kidney dialysis for 5 years. We knew she didn't have much time, but now she isn't even going to make it 3 weeks after her cancer diagnosis. We have a hospice set up and have been watching her slowly die over the course of 3 days.. her breathing is labored and slow but still rolling deep. I used to think a really shitty way to go is to get shot or decapitated by the cartel. I'm now realizing that the shittiest way to go is in hospice, with your family seeing your contorted body lose life slowly over a few days all while talking like you can't hear everything. Just too medicated to move.. I now think I see why some of these people just say fuck it and eat a bullet or jump off a high rise.. anyways just some random shit going through my head that I can't really talk about with anyone other than some fellow sickos. Cheers.
Somehow, she's still chugging along. Day 3 is just starting. I think it will be soon though, I've seen these labored breaths before

Ya,that shit Sucks Bro! Dying slowly, seemingly without Dignity is a Hard thing to Endure! I experienced it with my Father! On top of feeling Fkn Helpless,I can only imagine how it must feel for the Family member slowly perishing! Positive Wishes to U my friend! Try to Hang Tuff!
Condolences...
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