Did someone in your family commit suicide?

[MyGenerationZz]

So the reason I'm asking this is because my dad committed suicide 5 years ago by setting himself on fire behind the house. I wonder how people that aren't as introvert as i am handle this situation..

I got over it pretty quick but I never stopped thinking about why he chose that way. Me and him had a pretty good relationship. But he didn't even wrote a goodbye letter or something, he just left a little bit of money but nothing else.. I didnt speak with many people about it because I think that most of the people around me are too stupid to understand me and my weird ways to think about all that stuff.. I think I even got a little psychopathic/schizophrenic about everything and I just can't find a way out of this crap. Don't get me wrong, I'm living a pretty normal funny and positive live but in the nighttime all this shit comes up..

What are your experiences with this theme?

Thanks for listening I guess.
-P

 

[DoDoo]

I could see how that might be hard to process.

You say it's the method in which he chose to suicide that bothers you?

Did he make mention of it at any point leading up to the suicide?

 

[Brainfart]

Set himself on fire...was he a Thai monk?

 

[XGilgameshX]

I feel your pain. Had a brother commit suicide 8 years ago without leaving a note sliced his wrists in the bath tub. The pain eases with time, although never really goes away. I got a tattoo saying "the most painful goodbyes are the ones never said or never explained. Stay strong =]

 

[MyGenerationZz]

I could see how that might be hard to process.

You say it's the method in which he chose to suicide that bothers you?

Did he make mention of it at any point leading up to the suicide?

I think he had depressions but you couldn't tell because he always was very quiet and he always did fight with himself I guess. He didn't mention it in any way that's why I was so hard to accept. The only thing that always comes up is that I watched a movie with him years before his suicide where a preacher lights himself on fire in the church. Don't know the title of the movie but I remember the scene pretty good. He didn't comment it as well

 

[MyGenerationZz]

I feel your pain. Had a brother commit suicide 8 years ago without leaving a note sliced his wrists in the bath tub. The pain eases with time, although never really goes away. I got a tattoo saying "the most painful goodbyes are the ones never said or never explained. Stay strong =]

Thank you it got better over the years that's absolutely right 😁

 

[MyGenerationZz]

I feel your pain. Had a brother commit suicide 8 years ago without leaving a note sliced his wrists in the bath tub. The pain eases with time, although never really goes away. I got a tattoo saying "the most painful goodbyes are the ones never said or never explained. Stay strong =]

Thank you it got better over the years that's absolutely right 😁

Set himself on fire...was he a Thai monk?

Unfortunately not. If so he did hide it pretty well 😂

 

[Hate]

Got no experience with family, only friends. The mindset and method is always my interest. Some are mopey and lame. If they go visually peacefully with self immolation, that's pretty cool in my book though.

make fun memories with the fuckers you find cool, because you're still alive, for now. Get out and do shit! Life's short

 

[unh0ly]

lost a close family friend who became like a father to me as a teen, suicide by gunshot. saw him in the casket at the funeral with a dent patched up by skin. never expected to see such an amazing man pale and lifeless so soon, i miss the bastards jokes

 

[SPHINCTERPUNCH]

Set himself on fire...was he a Thai monk?

Ha ha ha ha ha! I don't mean to make "LIGHT" 🔥,But that was pretty Funny! Lmao...SP

 

[Interregnum]

how did you know it was suicide?
maybe a nigga from goregrish set him on fire to have content

 

[Graziani]

4 messages. Another bestgore refugee

 

[Rabidface]

I have no experience in this field

 

[SeekingReality]

So the reason I'm asking this is because my dad committed suicide 5 years ago by setting himself on fire behind the house. I wonder how people that aren't as introvert as i am handle this situation..

I got over it pretty quick but I never stopped thinking about why he chose that way. Me and him had a pretty good relationship. But he didn't even wrote a goodbye letter or something, he just left a little bit of money but nothing else.. I didnt speak with many people about it because I think that most of the people around me are too stupid to understand me and my weird ways to think about all that stuff.. I think I even got a little psychopathic/schizophrenic about everything and I just can't find a way out of this crap. Don't get me wrong, I'm living a pretty normal funny and positive live but in the nighttime all this shit comes up..

What are your experiences with this theme?

Thanks for listening I guess.
-P

Am so sorry love and yes, I can imagine it being difficult especially without him leaving any explanation, my heart goes out to you.

What you are feeling and still feeling is, normal, unfortunately.
Five years ago is in honesty, still pretty recent in the scheme of things, and grief comes in all forms and stages - plus, night time or early morn, things always seem to elevate emotions inside our brain.

For what it is worth, my Dads Brother took his life out of nowhere, it was my Dad that found him with his head in the oven with the gas on - no note, no signs, nothing.
(Please note, this was over forty years + ago)

All my Fathers side (him included) were all very quiet people, never really talked about things or the alike, which made it difficult for the rest of us, as naturally you want to know why, if anything was said and so on
- but my Dad was, as said, a quiet person too, thus all we could all do is try and come to terms with it.

Even now, especially at night, this does come into my mind and nags at me, more so if I'm not feeling too great, or have had a long day... All I personally can do is mention/ it to people (usually anon helplines, samaritans in my case in the UK, as strangers seem to 'get' it more and understand.)

Now this is easier said than done, but frankly all you can do is
1/ do not beat yourself up about it, it is not your fault.
2/know what you are feeling is sadly, normal, especially under the circumstances.
3/write down those feelings when they arise.
4/know that there are folk like either us here, or other anon help lines that will listen.

I'm again, really sorry for your loss love, be kind to yourself ~A

 

[MyGenerationZz]

Am so sorry love and yes, I can imagine it being difficult especially without him leaving any explanation, my heart goes out to you.

What you are feeling and still feeling is, normal, unfortunately.
Five years ago is in honesty, still pretty recent in the scheme of things, and grief comes in all forms and stages - plus, night time or early morn, things always seem to elevate emotions inside our brain.

For what it is worth, my Dads Brother took his life out of nowhere, it was my Dad that found him with his head in the oven with the gas on - no note, no signs, nothing.
(Please note, this was over forty years + ago)

All my Fathers side (him included) were all very quiet people, never really talked about things or the alike, which made it difficult for the rest of us, as naturally you want to know why, if anything was said and so on
- but my Dad was, as said, a quiet person too, thus all we could all do is try and come to terms with it.

Even now, especially at night, this does come into my mind and nags at me, more so if I'm not feeling too great, or have had a long day... All I personally can do is mention/ it to people (usually anon helplines, samaritans in my case in the UK, as strangers seem to 'get' it more and understand.)

Now this is easier said than done, but frankly all you can do is
1/ do not beat yourself up about it, it is not your fault.
2/know what you are feeling is sadly, normal, especially under the circumstances.
3/write down those feelings when they arise.
4/know that there are folk like either us here, or other anon help lines that will listen.

I'm again, really sorry for your loss love, be kind to yourself ~A

I really appreciate your kind sentences. I'm sorry for your loss too. I'm glad that there are people like you that actually find the right words for unusual situation. I only wish the best for you.
Love and Peace
-P

 

[Xena1966]

So very sorry for your loss. Yes, this will fuck you up without you even being aware it's fucking you up. It's insidious like that.... my sister was smart. She just did the simple bullet through the brain thing. No pain and suffering there. She WAS a nurse, so she didn't do one of those hideous , "shoot the wrong way and live like a meaty muppet" like deals). Time does help. Sometimes you'll feel all puffed up, like, "My dad killed himself or, "My sister killed herself"...makes you feel like you had a bad ass in your family... then comes the times you really need your sister in life, and she's just not there... you know your older sister could offer sisterly advice about your kids hating you...but she's just not there. Then, you want to scream, throw things...but what does that accomplish? Just...hold on to the memory of them. They are part of the balcony people now. They see what's going on...they still care...

 

[Der Wolf]

Yes, my grandfather was a senior political military officer
After dismantling, he could not process that he was no longer a soldier, so he committed suicide, jumping from the roof of a tower block to the concrete

 

[justwantingtokms]

Well, my cousin hanged himself and I and the police were the only ones who saw his hanged corpse, the thing is that even before this I myself was and still am very suicidal and after major depressive episodes I lost the ability to feel emotions or cry, soo before this I was imagining myself being dead so my mind was used to this idea.
At the funeral and in general, i didn't cry at all whatsoever
My family and I are Christians and his mother and mine started telling me that they dream him, that he is in the dark, him telling them that he has to stay in the dark..... and all of this
So I myself saw him in my dream 1 or 2 times in 1 year but it was a casual normal dream so I came to the conclusion that I accepted his death that why I don't dream any of this bs
Also, I was somewhat of a real Christian but since then I kinda slowly pulled away and I don't know what I believe in anymore, I still believe in the existence of God or some higher power but still......
Also Idk why he choose to hang himself, I myself wish to never be found if I kill myself, I don't any funeral + the fact that hanging is somewhat painful...

 

[ArmageddonWatcher]

Set himself on fire...was he a Thai monk?

Oh man, don't do that. Reminds me of some of the best music ever made...

 

[Blood&Guts]

So the reason I'm asking this is because my dad committed suicide 5 years ago by setting himself on fire behind the house. I wonder how people that aren't as introvert as i am handle this situation..

I got over it pretty quick but I never stopped thinking about why he chose that way. Me and him had a pretty good relationship. But he didn't even wrote a goodbye letter or something, he just left a little bit of money but nothing else.. I didnt speak with many people about it because I think that most of the people around me are too stupid to understand me and my weird ways to think about all that stuff.. I think I even got a little psychopathic/schizophrenic about everything and I just can't find a way out of this crap. Don't get me wrong, I'm living a pretty normal funny and positive live but in the nighttime all this shit comes up..

What are your experiences with this theme?

Thanks for listening I guess.
-P

My mum od’d on Christmas (2019), she was financially fucked and owed 3,000 to her angry landlord so I could’ve been murder? I got over it fast but like you said its still on my mind fairly frequently, im bot bothered honestly, theres times i miss her of course but life is life and i can handle it ig?