Did someone in your family commit suicide?

[ArmageddonWatcher]

So the reason I'm asking this is because my dad committed suicide 5 years ago by setting himself on fire behind the house. I wonder how people that aren't as introvert as i am handle this situation..

I got over it pretty quick but I never stopped thinking about why he chose that way. Me and him had a pretty good relationship. But he didn't even wrote a goodbye letter or something, he just left a little bit of money but nothing else.. I didnt speak with many people about it because I think that most of the people around me are too stupid to understand me and my weird ways to think about all that stuff.. I think I even got a little psychopathic/schizophrenic about everything and I just can't find a way out of this crap. Don't get me wrong, I'm living a pretty normal funny and positive live but in the nighttime all this shit comes up..

What are your experiences with this theme?

Thanks for listening I guess.
-P

My condolences, better late than never so to say.
Someone hung himself in the other side of the family. He was intelligent and a loner who never really felt understood.

 

[Blood&Guts]

My mum od’d on Christmas (2019), she was financially fucked and owed 3,000 to her angry landlord so It could’ve even been murder? I got over it fast but like you said its still on my mind fairly frequently, im not bothered by it, honestly, theres times i miss her of course but life is life and i can handle it ig?

 

[Brainfart]

Oh man, don't do that. Reminds me of some of the best music ever made...

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That's the one...Nice powers of deduction, Holmes...

 

[ArmageddonWatcher]

That's the one...Nice powers of deduction, Holmes...

Thx Brainfart, I had the privilege of seeing them live once during their heyday. Unfortunately I didn't see a burning Thai monk on stage, but the audience did cause a little earthquake though! 💪

 

[Kurlander]

The good news is that after death, it's the same as before life😏

 

[BullwinkleMoose]

I had an uncle. A real nasty bastard. He blew his brains out with a pistol.
I just shrugged when I heard the news. Good riddance.

 

[sabamc]

So the reason I'm asking this is because my dad committed suicide 5 years ago by setting himself on fire behind the house. I wonder how people that aren't as introvert as i am handle this situation..

I got over it pretty quick but I never stopped thinking about why he chose that way. Me and him had a pretty good relationship. But he didn't even wrote a goodbye letter or something, he just left a little bit of money but nothing else.. I didnt speak with many people about it because I think that most of the people around me are too stupid to understand me and my weird ways to think about all that stuff.. I think I even got a little psychopathic/schizophrenic about everything and I just can't find a way out of this crap. Don't get me wrong, I'm living a pretty normal funny and positive live but in the nighttime all this shit comes up..

What are your experiences with this theme?

Thanks for listening I guess.
-P

My mom's father committed suicide last year on Christmas Eve by stabbing himself. I never enjoyed the holidays to begin with, but after his death, it obviously wasn't the same. He must've been in the early stages of dementia. Wasn't too sure because he refused getting diagnosed but surely had signs of the disease. (I worked as a caregiver for nursing homes) I'm not looking forward for Christmas any longer. I miss him dearly.

 

[Kakihara]

No, but I found my sister's body when she made one of her attempts.

 

[ChillLil]

No, but a neighbor just jumped to his death because he had a fight with his family

 

[TonyBliar]

My Grand-mother did, although I hadn’t been born by then.

My mother used to threaten it if we didn’t behave as kids. we were a one parent family, my Dad having died when I was 1.

 

[0rganDonor]

Not directly family, but my niece's boyfriend's sister topped herself back in February. Lucie was 19 and studying to become a social worker.

She struggled with her mental health and self-harm, and thought cocaine would be the cure. Strung herself up in the walk-in wardrobe.

Story in the local paper here...

 

[Gouki]

I did have an uncle he was fucked with as a kid suspected. Had a problem with drugs due to that dad never helped him when it came to he's mental health problems regarding that. Not to mention the mother was actually bi polar. He was a good man he had demons i remember when it happened i was young.

 

[GoreLordKasper]

Well, my cousin hanged himself and I and the police were the only ones who saw his hanged corpse, the thing is that even before this I myself was and still am very suicidal and after major depressive episodes I lost the ability to feel emotions or cry, soo before this I was imagining myself being dead so my mind was used to this idea.
At the funeral and in general, i didn't cry at all whatsoever
My family and I are Christians and his mother and mine started telling me that they dream him, that he is in the dark, him telling them that he has to stay in the dark..... and all of this
So I myself saw him in my dream 1 or 2 times in 1 year but it was a casual normal dream so I came to the conclusion that I accepted his death that why I don't dream any of this bs
Also, I was somewhat of a real Christian but since then I kinda slowly pulled away and I don't know what I believe in anymore, I still believe in the existence of God or some higher power but still......
Also Idk why he choose to hang himself, I myself wish to never be found if I kill myself, I don't any funeral + the fact that hanging is somewhat painful...

Same feeling

 

[IExist]

My sister attempted suicide over a dumb prick who broke up with her over a text message. But no family member actually doing it. Even if a family member did, I'm not close to any of them so I wouldn't feel guilty over their death. I would just call them selfish and a coward and move on with my life. Humans are disgusting anyway.

 

[Bill Murray]

Family still get together for BBQs?

 

[Standish]

My cousin committed suicide in his early 20s. He was being driven home by my uncle from a mental health treatment center and were staying the night at a motel. When his dad went to go and get dinner, my cousin walked to a nearby gas station, paid for some gasoline and doused himself in it before setting himself on fire using a lighter. Staff extinguished the flames with a water hose and he was taken to the hospital, but he died in under 24 hours.

 

[Eleawizz]

So the reason I'm asking this is because my dad committed suicide 5 years ago by setting himself on fire behind the house. I wonder how people that aren't as introvert as i am handle this situation..

I got over it pretty quick but I never stopped thinking about why he chose that way. Me and him had a pretty good relationship. But he didn't even wrote a goodbye letter or something, he just left a little bit of money but nothing else.. I didnt speak with many people about it because I think that most of the people around me are too stupid to understand me and my weird ways to think about all that stuff.. I think I even got a little psychopathic/schizophrenic about everything and I just can't find a way out of this crap. Don't get me wrong, I'm living a pretty normal funny and positive live but in the nighttime all this shit comes up..

What are your experiences with this theme?

Thanks for listening I guess.
-P

Hit me up if you want to chat. I have similar experiences and basically live the same life as you, if that makes any sense. I have some theories if you are interested.

 

[yukaluka]

I’m a little late but I don’t blame you for finding that hard to deal with. Ive had three family members commit suicide. I think the one that bothered me the most was my aunt’s, she lived by the sea, so she literally just walked into the ocean. It was so weird. Like she didn’t jump off a cliff, she didn’t go onto a warf and jump off that way, she went to the shore and walked out. I thought a lot about why she chose that way specifically and why she would start at the ankle high, freezing water and just walk into it. The way her corpse was found bothered me a lot too. She was there overnight so obviously was pretty bloated. Three of my family members found her and it made me mad that she would do that.

Lighting yourself on fire is a horrible way to commit suicide for sure, so I know my experience can’t relate too much, but I hope you feel less alone. I found coping hard and honestly still do. I just hope you find solace in there being someone else who kind of gets it.

Also I’ve come to believe that in the moment of their suicide they tend to think they need to be “punished” so that’s why they choose incredibly painful ways to go, but I’m not sure if that’s right.

 

[Skin]

I wish

 

[Devillynx]

I barely know my family. I've had a friend try to, but we don't even talk anymore. I'm sorry for your loss