Watching death up close (discussion)

[Gutsss]

Honestly all of you are giving me a lot of comfort and this is the last place I thought I would find it. I've even giggled a couple of times. She's still here, the chaplain just left and I'm just really hoping that she is gone before the end of the night so my family can get some peace and we know she's pain free. She hasn't eaten or drank in 2 days and today she didn't want any medication. When we tried to give her some she kept her mouth closed and wouldn't open. The only movement or any kind of sign she gave us was groaning when my cousin let out a loud fart... im thankful for all of you and having this bit of distraction!
Does anyone have a link to the death rattle I should be listening for? I know agonal breathing but I can't picture this death rattle sound the nurse has said to listen for

Ya,that shit Sucks Bro! Dying slowly, seemingly without Dignity is a Hard thing to Endure! I experienced it with my Father! On top of feeling Fkn Helpless,I can only imagine how it must feel for the Family member slowly perishing! Positive Wishes to U my friend! Try to Hang Tuff!
Condolences...
SP

Cheers, thank you SP 😊

 

[Gone crazy back soon]

Make sure she knows it's alright to go. She's lived her life, loved her family and done her part. Let her know you love her and she doesn't need to hold on.

 

[mrln]

sorry to hear about gram.
shes made up her mind and just wants to go. say what ya gotta say. make her smile one last time (on your part). because that will be one of the lasting memories youll have of her. itll be easier to see that in your head,than her mouth wide open. i didnt get that. i tried. but it never happened. "just one last time", i said to myself. (but i know my grandmother is smiling now)
good luck
condolences, for later on.

 

[Is.this.4.real]

So my natural morbid curiosity started extremely young. I grew up on rotten.com/ ogrish/best gore/the ync and now goregrish. I have seen a lot of death and I may even be slightly addicted to seeing it. Recently my grandmother was diagnosed with bladder cancer and has been on kidney dialysis for 5 years. We knew she didn't have much time, but now she isn't even going to make it 3 weeks after her cancer diagnosis. We have a hospice set up and have been watching her slowly die over the course of 3 days.. her breathing is labored and slow but still rolling deep. I used to think a really shitty way to go is to get shot or decapitated by the cartel. I'm now realizing that the shittiest way to go is in hospice, with your family seeing your contorted body lose life slowly over a few days all while talking like you can't hear everything. Just too medicated to move.. I now think I see why some of these people just say fuck it and eat a bullet or jump off a high rise.. anyways just some random shit going through my head that I can't really talk about with anyone other than some fellow sickos. Cheers.
Somehow, she's still chugging along. Day 3 is just starting. I think it will be soon though, I've seen these labored breaths before

What is life? What is it for? Why do we even exist? So many answers... And there is only one true answer... It's your life and go find out the true answer by living it one day at a time. So, I am convinced that all life is precious.

 

[JAMES HÜRZOG]

Went through this.... it sucked. Had to sell the house . A SHIT TON OF PAPER WORK! . grandad was a pack rat from Germany he was poor as a child didn’t believe in throwing anything out ! Grandma wasn’t... they had 4 acres of land overall in stuttgart Germany . I wouldn’t wish that time on my favorite enemy...

 

[Gutsss]

Definitely. I told her we will all have each other but now my Dad and her other 2 kids miss her and need to see their Mom
Grandma passed a few hours ago, they have taken her.. I almost want to storm the mortuary and watch over how she is handled but, ill just rest for now. Its kind of stupid. But one of my favorite memories is her teaching us little girls to dance to Brooks and Dunn - Neon moon.. which is weird because she's Mexican as fuck and doesn't listen to much country.. either way I can't get the song out of my head. Its making me smile.. im mixed half white half Mexican, and a totally obscene metal head, so this soft shit has me in my feels. this is all surreal
Thank you everyone for your kindness, ill be back mocking death and making smart ass comments soon

 

[patricia]

So my natural morbid curiosity started extremely young. I grew up on rotten.com/ ogrish/best gore/the ync and now goregrish. I have seen a lot of death and I may even be slightly addicted to seeing it. Recently my grandmother was diagnosed with bladder cancer and has been on kidney dialysis for 5 years. We knew she didn't have much time, but now she isn't even going to make it 3 weeks after her cancer diagnosis. We have a hospice set up and have been watching her slowly die over the course of 3 days.. her breathing is labored and slow but still rolling deep. I used to think a really shitty way to go is to get shot or decapitated by the cartel. I'm now realizing that the shittiest way to go is in hospice, with your family seeing your contorted body lose life slowly over a few days all while talking like you can't hear everything. Just too medicated to move.. I now think I see why some of these people just say fuck it and eat a bullet or jump off a high rise.. anyways just some random shit going through my head that I can't really talk about with anyone other than some fellow sickos. Cheers.
Somehow, she's still chugging along. Day 3 is just starting. I think it will be soon though, I've seen these labored breaths bM

So my natural morbid curiosity started extremely young. I grew up on rotten.com/ ogrish/best gore/the ync and now goregrish. I have seen a lot of death and I may even be slightly addicted to seeing it. Recently my grandmother was diagnosed with bladder cancer and has been on kidney dialysis for 5 years. We knew she didn't have much time, but now she isn't even going to make it 3 weeks after her cancer diagnosis. We have a hospice set up and have been watching her slowly die over the course of 3 days.. her breathing is labored and slow but still rolling deep. I used to think a really shitty way to go is to get shot or decapitated by the cartel. I'm now realizing that the shittiest way to go is in hospice, with your family seeing your contorted body lose life slowly over a few days all while talking like you can't hear everything. Just too medicated to move.. I now think I see why some of these people just say fuck it and eat a bullet or jump off a high rise.. anyways just some random shit going through my head that I can't really talk about with anyone other than some fellow sickos. Cheers.
Somehow, she's still chugging along. Day 3 is just starting. I think it will be soon though, I've seen these labored breaths before

Hi hows it going? hope it wont be to long now. i'm pleased your with her and so will she be. you will be able to put your head down on your pillow at night and be content in the knowledge that you did right by her. Thinking about you both.
sorry i did not read that message. i am pleased for you both it is over and she has gone no more pain for either of you. You did all you could now it's time for for you to l,ook after yourself. big hugs.

 

[Humungus]

The

in this thread is pretty cool and I thought you guys were all a set of hard hearted cunts

 

[Gutsss]

Thank you so much I appreciate all the love my fellow weirdos have given me through this! Yall gave me a bit of a distraction and it really helped during the rough moments
@Humungus right?! I am shocked at the level of support and kindness I received from people like me who seek out the most grotesque things the internet has to offer! Some people think we lack sympathy because we are able to stomach this kind of content and this is proof that we all have hearts buried somewhere in our morbid curiosity. I was a lurker, but im definitely hooked on the forums now and am looking forward to interacting with everyone more, even the trolls

 

[Humungus]

Thank you so much I appreciate all the love my fellow weirdos have given me through this! Yall gave me a bit of a distraction and it really helped during the rough moments
@Humungus right?! I am shocked at the level of support and kindness I received from people like me who seek out the most grotesque things the internet has to offer! Some people think we lack sympathy because we are able to stomach this kind of content and this is proof that we all have hearts buried somewhere in our morbid curiosity. I was a lurker, but im definitely hooked on the forums now and am looking forward to interacting with everyone more, even the trolls

It’s not a bad set or weirdo’s on here as a rule.

 

[Gutsss]

Yeah I'm loving everyone already 🥰

 

[DIVISION77]

Recently my grandmother was diagnosed with bladder cancer and has been on kidney dialysis for 5 years. We have a hospice set up and have been watching her slowly die over the course of 3 days.. her breathing is labored and slow but still rolling deep.

I saw my mother die at home in hospice. I flew in from Texas and was there for her last breaths. I was not sad. She had been suffering from bone cancer for months and I was happy her suffering was over. I mourned for my mother before that. The way I saw it, her body was there but the person I knew as my mother was long gone by this time. It reminded me of when I saw my grandfather for the last time in the hospital as a child. Something in me knew it was the last time I would see him alive as he was dying from stomach cancer. I felt emotions then because it was the final goodbye.

 

[MocRocker]

I worked for a time as a deputy coroner. Seen some stuff. Happy and willing to answer any and all questions you may have. I will not discuss names tho for obvious reasons.

 

[Gutsss]

Grandma was laid to rest today guys. Thank you for all the support. Smooches

 

[GOTTOFORGET]

So my natural morbid curiosity started extremely young. I grew up on rotten.com/ ogrish/best gore/the ync and now goregrish. I have seen a lot of death and I may even be slightly addicted to seeing it. Recently my grandmother was diagnosed with bladder cancer and has been on kidney dialysis for 5 years. We knew she didn't have much time, but now she isn't even going to make it 3 weeks after her cancer diagnosis. We have a hospice set up and have been watching her slowly die over the course of 3 days.. her breathing is labored and slow but still rolling deep. I used to think a really shitty way to go is to get shot or decapitated by the cartel. I'm now realizing that the shittiest way to go is in hospice, with your family seeing your contorted body lose life slowly over a few days all while talking like you can't hear everything. Just too medicated to move.. I now think I see why some of these people just say fuck it and eat a bullet or jump off a high rise.. anyways just some random shit going through my head that I can't really talk about with anyone other than some fellow sickos. Cheers.
Somehow, she's still chugging along. Day 3 is just starting. I think it will be soon though, I've seen these labored breaths before

stay positive, its kinda educational all of the stuff you watched, you now know how evil a human can be , now you know not to trust and be aware all the time, but do not forget to enjoy life even with all the stuff going on ,,

 

[erika4455]

Honestly all of you are giving me a lot of comfort and this is the last place I thought I would find it. I've even giggled a couple of times. She's still here, the chaplain just left and I'm just really hoping that she is gone before the end of the night so my family can get some peace and we know she's pain free. She hasn't eaten or drank in 2 days and today she didn't want any medication. When we tried to give her some she kept her mouth closed and wouldn't open. The only movement or any kind of sign she gave us was groaning when my cousin let out a loud fart... im thankful for all of you and having this bit of distraction!
Does anyone have a link to the death rattle I should be listening for? I know agonal breathing but I can't picture this death rattle sound the nurse has said to listen for

Cheers, thank you SP 😊

Were you one of the moderators at YNC?

 

[Deleted User 201666]

Hope ur coping if u need an ear

 

[Melinoë]

It's eerie as hell when they stop breathing I took care of my Gg and unfortunately had to suffer with seeing her ... what was left of her just lay there and it's scary when it's a loved one... (atleast to me)but I'm sorry for everyone who had to experience seeing a loved one pass

 

[Jltnov22]

Unfortunately barbiturates like nembutal, which provide an easy going-to-sleep death, are hard to obtain. There are alternatives however. Plastic bag over the head and fitted snugly at the neck, inert gas like nitrogen pumped in, and it is over within minutes. I've heard that certain types of salts that emit toxic fumes and provide an easy death are also out there. Peaceful Pill is an online book that can be obtained from Exit International that describes these and other techniques. Note that these techniques are undetectable by autopsy so no legal liability to worry about. No reason why grandmom has to suffer at the end.

I have that book. It is a really good book. Lots of ways, some easier to obtain and others not so much, to self euthanize. It was written as an aid to the elderly and those suffering from terminal illnesses.

 

[whiteboyopie]

😡😡😡😡😡

Assisted suicide is a Red Tape nightmare!!
Good luck !!
Once one gets through the beauacracy , now you have to buy the drugs. That's right , $$$ buy them.
But first a doctor must state, LEGALLY , you have 6 months or less. The crystal ball issue.
Again, buy the meds. Once the program started big pharma ramped up the cost to around $2,500 . Previously it was about $30.00 .
This all has to happen in 6 months.

Good luck.